" Alec?" I hear Magnus's voice and i quickly climb to my feet , my face was red and so were my eyes. I still don't understand why i am crying ? , everybody still tells me vile things about me being gay and my father will never accept it , i know that too but ,why is it that i still hope that one day , he will love me ?. "Alexander" Magnus is in his tracks , his hair is all over the place he looks beautiful " Yah, i am here" I say , " Whats wrong ?" He asks " Nothing , i am just worried about Clary and Jace nothing else" I blurt out " Alec i have known you for years, you know better than to lie " He says cupping my cheek " Did someone say something ?" He says after a few minutes , " Alec talk to me " He says as i sit down on the floor and settles right beside me " I-I don't want to bother you, you-you have so much to worry as it is " I say looking down " Does it bother you when i tell you about the tiniest , and non significant things ?" He says his voice soft, i shake my head " Then, why dont you tell me ? Maybe i can help " He says softly " Its dad " i say and he jerks his head " Did he say something ? " He asks i can sense his anger " I mean he called me in his office while you were checking the body , he..he told me that i bought shame to the family name and how jace is much better than me , how i have done nothing...nothing to bring glory to him or make him proud . I always knew he didn't like it that i was gay but...but he is my father , Mom accepts me , Izzy and Jace couldnt be more supportive and i am happy after a long time i am. And , he..he just doesn't care.." I am sobbing and trying so hard not too , he just stares " Maybe i am not worthy of ...of anything , i just don't deserve this...or anything , i dont deserve you either, it is only a matter of time before you realize that and leave, and the thought of that scares the living hell out of me "I think i am talking to myself or if magnus is asleep after a minute or an hour he speaks " Yes, Alec you dont deserve this " He says and i feel my heart break, he realized it at last he did . I have always dreaded this , but i knew that someday he would realize that i am an ordinary shadowhunters and i could give him at most some 40-50 years " You deserve so much better than this , you don't deserve to see this much of death, destruction and pain and you sure as hell don't deserve that sorry excuse of a father . You deserve happiness , love and joy " He kisses my forehead " I love you ,Alexander Lightwood. when will you get this inside your skull ?" He kisses my nose and i don't know when i fall asleep.
Magnus's POV
He is sleeping , his hair are on his eyes and his face is red . I still stare at him when we sleep , it seems so unrealistic that he is here , that he has been here and he loves me . I think i do understand why he cried , he is only nineteen his parents mean a lot to him , and he is allowed to have a little ups and downs .
" You know , i am not going to have a psychotic break down again you can sleep" He murmurs , "I don't mind if you do, you are really adorable " I snuggle " I love you" He says drowsily kissing me " I love you more "
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Fanfic" Are they some sort of demons ?" " No....much more deadly, they can siphon the magic and life out of you like its nothing . They are ancient and immortal , they can kill you within a blink of an eye. Its a thousand year old vendetta against th...
