EXO Planet |KaiSoo FanFic with other EXO pairings|

You Smile At Me Too

Kyungsoo stays there emotionlessly staring at the sink. And how droplets of water from the faucet and silence cover his world now. He buries his head on his knees, recalling how Jongin pinned him on the wall, how Jongin harshly but at the same time gently took his hand just to observe it, how Jongin’s fingertips brushed on his skin when he touched his neck, and how fucking Jongin made his heart beat so fast with the things he said earlier.

Kyungsoo doesn’t know now. He doesn’t want Jongin to know his weakness, that he’s afraid of people. He never wants Jongin to know. He doesn’t know how Jongin sees everything through him. All he wants to do is to see and make Jongin smile and then leave this world, but fuck, what is this in Jongin that Kyungsoo cannot figure out? Why is it hard to make Jongin smile?

Or is Jongin not suited for this world? That Kyungsoo is just wasting his time in this town anymore. That Kyungsoo is lessening his chance to be with his family because of running after Jongin? Kyungsoo thinks in silence.

And afterwards, he slaps his head for thinking that way. People who don’t smile so much is better than the ones who always smile. Because you know that once they smile, it is genuine and true, and Jongin is one of them. Unlike the others, many of their smiles are entirely fake, just like Kyungsoo.

But Kyungsoo has his reason why he always smiles; he wants to be protected by that smile. But Kyungsoo admits that it is hard, especially in times like this. Kyungsoo is serving the people around him and he has to smile each and every one of them. It fucking kills Kyungsoo.

Sometimes, it’s hard to smile when you’re not really happy. And Kyungsoo admires himself for being one of the fakers, because he is never really happy. He’s incomplete. And the ring JeHee gave him is missing so he doesn’t know now how to smile truthfully.

He scans around the room, curious if Jongin is still there. Jongin is not around, and Kyungsoo expects it. He is on the counter when Suho nudges him on his side, “What happened Kyungsoo?” Suho asks, looking at him.

Kyungsoo shakes his head and smiles afterwards because he knows that Suho won’t mind it anymore, “Nothing. I-I was just thinking where Jongin went. But I guess, he’s at home now.” he nods at Suho to assure that he’s fine. But he is not. He’s just lucky that Suho nods and doesn’t ask anymore question. I guess he thinks he understands, but he never will.

But Kyungsoo doesn’t know, Suho just shuts his mouth up because he knows that Kyungsoo won’t tell him about his problem. Suho just wishes not because he doesn’t trust them. Suho stares at Kyungsoo serving their customers with that smile. “I think he’s possessed by a spirit.” Chen suddenly tells him. Suho is startled at the sudden popping out of Chen from nowhere like a ghost, and he looks at Chen. Because Chen is ridiculous, who will think that Kyungsoo is possessed by a spirit? Can’t Chen see that Kyungsoo is just sad? Why Chen can see simple things? Suho rolls his eyes and walks away leaving Chen looking at him with confused eyes, Is he mad? Chen pouts but leaves it to ask others if Kyungsoo is possessed. Way to go Chen…

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Jongin doesn’t know why he’s bothered. He doesn’t know why he still asked Kyungsoo about it, and now, he fucking regrets it. He has thrown all of his pillows and moved side to side to side to side to find a comfortable way to sleep. But he fucking cannot sleep. He tried to just close his eyes but all he can see are the hickeys he found on Kyungsoo’s neck.