It's a long way down from here

Chapter two

Logan's Pov
Today I expect Riley to annoy the shit out of me, honestly, I think it's dumb of her to think she can change my mind. I really don't care about what anyone has to say today or tomorrow and I'm done listening but I'm a man of my word and I promised her 15 days so I will give her 15 useless days if that's what she wants. Let the games begin. I was sitting in the dark doing nothing in particular i mean I don't feel anything anymore anyways but I think I could think of better ways to go after all I'm the maverick, I do it different. Nothing particularly stood out and called my name so I guess we are sticking with the cliff. It was about 9 am and I still had the deafening silence, it's ironic because we always ask for "peace and quiet" but when we have it we start to go crazy. I'm already crazy I know this because some fantasizes about there future but I fantasizes about how to end my present, like if I took a pillow and just pushed it against my face and pushed all the life out of me, I could finally sleep, I could sleep forever never having to worry about annoying alarms or any disruptions it would just be me, lying there peacefully, alone and forever resting. anyways I heard a knock on the door and I slowly walked down my stairs to open it when I did I could barely see because of camera flashes going off but I could make out a figure so I quickly pulled them inside so I could shut the door and everything else out, Riley, great. I stared at her with no emotion. 'What do you want'
'Hello to you too'
'Yeah hey' I said sighing
'Well you gave me 15 days and I am not wasting one i mean this is your life we are talking about'
'I know MY life'  I snapped back emphasizing "my"
'And YOU are important' she did the same emphasizing "you"
'How the hell did you get here anyways'
'Google'
'ok whatever what are we doing today'
'well, today we are going to the mall.'
Ugh, I hate the mall. It's just a place for people to stare and yell and babies to cry and parents to walk slow and people to clutter and it doesn't help when you have many many people who love you but even more who hate you.
'Ok when do we go'
'Now'
I sighed 'fine'
We left the house and almost got blinded by flashes and I could barely hear anything but screaming. I hate my life.
We got to the mall in the Yeti. We went inside and people were screaming a few said:: "go die"... I wish I could, others said: "kill your self"... I want nothing more, the voices danced in my head refusing to get out no matter how hard I tried. The ones telling me I suck need to up there game I mean at least the ones that give me death threats and try to break into my house to kill me use some imagination and creativity unlike the unoriginal ones that can't think of something good, like if you tell someone to kill themselves make it count please. (NOT APART OF THE STORY BUT DONT BE A BITCH AND DONT EVER TELL ANYONE TO KILL THEMSELVES) 'What about this one' Riley snapped me out of my thoughts, that happens a lot, me getting lost in my head, it's a really dangerous and scary place. I didn't know where we were but I didn't care. 'It's great' I say not meaning it and with no emotion. 'Logan what happened'
She pulled my hand and moved me over to  this bench in the store for trying on shoes and stuff 'what do you mean' I ask confused 'you use to be so happy and outgoing and you never acted like this, ever'
'Yeah and I also never got hated by half the fucking world'
'Logan...'
She couldn't say anything, she knows that what I'm saying is true.
'Logan don't worry because the love will always overpower all the hate for example' she stood up pulling my hand and dragging me with her out of the store and as soon as we got out, yelling, cluttering, pushing, shoving, it was great, I roll my eyes and I was pissed Riley could tell so she told me to block out the hate but open my eyes and see who is there and who loves me. I did and I saw about thirty kids there because they were fans but only seven there because they hated me. Maybe it's not that bad. Soon we got out to the car and i was still confused 'why did we come here' 'because logan you need to see how much your fans appreciate and love you'
I just sighed, maybe if I sigh long enough I will exhale all the air out of me... That would be nice. We drove in silence when we got back to the house a cheeky smile came across Rileys lips 'Logan reason number one... Your fans they love you and if you left they would lose apart of themselves'  
She has a point. We said goodnight and I gave her my number. I went to my bed and passed out. Finally, the screaming, the flashes, the pushing... it all stopped.