The Best. By far. Is you (Wes x Reader)

I just can't look its killing me

Late November and the Smosh gang where Filming Christmas themed videos.

A new girl - Boze? Was joining the gang As the newest member of Smosh games.

Emily Did Like Boze But she also felt uneasy As she was No longer the new Girl In the group and wondered where her place was now.

That and everyone Got along with

her so easily and she was so pretty and her and Wes had Been hanging out loads - Emily wasn't jealous. She hated people who Got jealous over silly things.

Sometimes she felt Like the gang liked Boze more than her But she knew it was intrusive thoughts But sometimes it felt real and too much that it caused her great anxiety

They were all doing a gamebang later with punishments and when they needed someone to do grocery shopping she had volunteered and gone off As quickly As possible

She put her earbuds in her ears and started listening to block out the thoughts and Ignore the World As she walked off towards the supermarket

Someone grabbed her shoulder and she pushed her elbow back into the persons stomach? And took her head phone out of her Ear.

'Em! It's just me' Wes Said out of breath and looked at her confused.

' Sorry. I thought someone was going to attack me' Emily Said embaressed

'Well you are safe sunshine. I thought i would help you go grocery shopping'

'You dont have to. Honestly' Emily Said and started walking again

' is something wrong? You usually love doing things together But lately you always go off from the gang. Not just from me But everyone' Wes asked worriedly

' i have a lot of side effects because of My anti depressants. I'm exhausted all the time. It's the hardest thing i've done But It's nessisary if i want to get better you know?' Emily Said it was at least half the truth

Starting on anti deppressants had Been a hard decision for Emily because she was very against taking pills because she didn't Like How pills affected her body.

She was exhausted all the time or nauseous and dizzy and had no appetite.

The worst was the intrusive thoughts or the impulsive thoughts that always seemed to pop up daily.

' do you not want me to come? Do you need space?' Wes asked in a quiet voice

Emily felt like a complete dick. She did want him around. He was her best friend and they hung out a lot normally but she was scared because she had been getting worse mentally recently.

She reached out and linked her arm into his.

'Of course Bright eyes. Thing is though I never know what kind of day it will be. Sometimes I wake up and my whole day is good other days I wake up and everything is a mess. I don't want you guys to see me when everything is a mess' Emily said looking down at the ground

' Em, we all love you and we can handle seeing you on your bad days. It won't ever be too much for us' Wes said reassuringly

Emily looked up at him in shock. It was like he had just read her mind. Like he understood her completely without her saying a word.

Her eyes were glossy and her voice was shaky

'It feels like you just read my mind. Thank you, I appreciate that more than you will ever know' Emily said and leaned over and kissed Wes on the cheek

Wes looked at her in awe like he just realized something.

Emily however didn't notice and dragged him towards the grocery shop.