Pause.

Yell

Sometimes I wish they would yell,

Tell me I'm wrong and that it was okay.

Sometimes I wish I didn't feel like the problem,

Because I'm the one that said what almost everyone knew.

In the midst of my sadness,

Sometimes I wish they would stop sugar coating their words like medicine.

I wish they would get emotional,

Either tell me I’m worthless or that they give a damn.

I just want them to break the mask they are using, on accident,

So I can see how they really stand.

I wish they could vent to me, and not feel like shit for doing it.

I wish I hadn’t already forgiven them,

I never got to see their side.

Sometimes I wish it wasn’t like sandpaper across my skin every time I talk,

I just dig my hole deeper.

I wish I didn’t make them hate me and lie about it.

I just hate only being a mask.