Bipolar for Him; A Joseph SoMo Fanfic (ON HOLD)

Bipolar for Him; Pt. 15

Erika's POV:

"All you got is eyes for me
I'm the only girl you see
So if you treat me right just the way that I want you
Oh baby boy I promise that I'll be on you
Oh oh oh oh oh on you
Night to the mo-oh-oh-oh-oh-orning"

- Ariana Grande, Be My Baby

        We enter our hotel room. It wasn't exactly home sweet home, but it was way better than the hospital room. I wanna jump in the shower and scrub myself clean. I woke up in an exceptionally well mood. Details like knowing I was in the hospital seem so miniscule and just slip away. I was just glad to be here and now with Joseph.

"Where you rushing off to, miss?" Joseph asks curiously.

        Before I consciously know it, I'm making a face and scrunching my nose. Even though I know I'm with him right now, I feel this tug in my heart like we've been reunited after such a long time. Maybe I'd been in the hospital longer than I thought.

"Showering, is that a problem?" I sassily say back and stick my tongue out at him.

Cody pops into the room and returns to us after parking the car. "Seriously, you could use one."

"Well, I can always count on you to be honest," I reply with a sour face.

"You're welcome," Cody replies.

Post Shower

         I slip on some shorts and one of his shirts that he left on my bed. He was on the couch with his head in his hands. He was probably just tired from being in the hospital, I thought.

"You left one of your shirts on my bed so I just borrowed it, if that's okay," I said facing him.

         He took a while to look up at me and put on a weak smile which seemed to be for my sake.

"It's better than fine, it's great," he replied pulling me down to sit on his lap.

         He was smiling while saying this, but I knew he was somewhere else.

"Are you okay?" I ask getting serious and staring into his eyes to see if he would try to come up with an excuse or not.

"He's better than fine, you're on his lap in his tee shirt. This is like a dream come true for him." Cody answers in replace of Joseph. 

"Jesus, you pop out of nowhere. Where are you coming from?" I ask a little annoyed because I couldn't get an answer from Joseph yet.

"Well, it's nice to have you back."

        Cody and I were always snarky towards each other, especially after being in the hospital. It let me fall back in my usual routine and move past whatever had happened. At this point, episodes had just become a part of my life to the point where I just let Cody remember. That was Cody's job, he once told me, and my job was to recover. He knew I would bounce back against all doctor's orders and he just let me be.

I look at my wrist and say, "Oh, look isn't it time for your 9 o'clock booty call."

        He looks at me with his eyebrows raised as to say 'oh, yeah?'

"That used to be you, you know," he replies with the a huge smirk on his face.

         I grab what was closest to me, a throw pillow, and chuck it at Cody. I look at Joseph to see his reaction to what Cody had just said. A tiny, half smirk lied on his face as he shook his head at us.
 I put my head in my hands and hid in Joseph's neck. He wraps his arms around my waist and I tell him Cody only tells lies.

         I tell Joseph that I wanted some fresh air and asked him if he wanted to come. The four walls seem to be closing in on me and it made me felt a little stuffy. When he said no, I grabbed my hotel room key and cell and walked out the door. I could hear yelling from inside our room and then a slam of the door followed by footsteps running my way.

"Wait up! I'm coming with," Cody yelled.

"Why were you you two yelling?" I ask.

"Oh, you know Joey. That guy likes to be loud. We were just messing around," he replies.

        My eyes got huge as to this was a surprise to me. Have I been gone that long?

"No, I guess not. When were you two so buddy buddy and you have a nickname for him now?" I ask.

"Listen, things have kinda changed a bit while you were in the hospital," Cody says slowly.

"I can tell... Oh, is he alright? He's been so quiet and it's making me worry. It's like he's in an other world. You know?"

"He's... he'll be okay," Cody tells me with a cautious face on.

                 My head felt like it was exploding. That claustrophobic feeling was coming on to me again and I thought it would've gone away by the time I walked out the room, but it didn't. What did Cody mean by 'he'll be okay' and why did he take so long to answer? Why did Joseph seem so distant from me? He's always so involved always checking up on everyone, always being interactive. Cody and Joseph are apparently best friends now. I remember when they were ready to rip out each other's throats and now they have nicknames. How long have I been gone to have all these changes occur?

        All of a sudden, it all became too much for me to handle. The racing thoughts made me want to bang my head against a wall to make it all stop. I could feel myself lose consciousness and I was so greatful for that.