Bipolar for Him; A Joseph SoMo Fanfic (ON HOLD)

Bipolar for Him; Pt. 12

"He is as elusive as a falling star, one that nobody will ever really catch, and if you catch him, he will only burn right through you.”
― Katy Evans, Mine

Joseph's POV:

"Oh, jesus. You're kidding me." Cody mutters. He seemed annoyed when he saw Ika in that little mom and pop apothecary, but hell that's all I could think about; her.

As soon as I saw her, I opened my door and ran to her.

"You idiot! Are you trying to smash my car door?!" he yells as I slip out his moving car.

I didn't care. Nothing mattered at that point, but one person... her.

She was turned around looking at some products which I didn't bother to pay attention to. I turned her around and wrapped my arms around her. I release a breath of air that I've felt like I've held in forever.

"ERIKA MAE AQUINO. You had me so fucking worried. Do you like doing this? Is this your thing? Because I need to know." I wrap my arms around her in fear of letting her leave again.

She doesn't answer and just smiles a small shy smile at me like what she did was nothing, like this was casual. I stare into her eyes still pissed off, but can't help from smiling at the ridiculousness of the situation.

"Are you gonna just look at me?" I ask. She looks at me, shrugs her shoulders, and carries on browsing on what she wants. I shake my head. What is happening? Why is she just avoiding me?

Whatever. She's here now with my arm wrapped around her waist.

She takes out her wallet to pay for whatever crap she got, but instead I pull out my credit card and hand it to the cashier.

She smiles at me and gives me a look saying, you didn't have to do that. Why can't she just tell me that? Instead of speaking to me through her eyes. I mean, not that I mind staring into those beautiful eyes.

"Oh, gimme a break, Erika. This again?" Cody asks from the door of the store.I watch for her expression and see her expression turn sour. She looks at him and makes sure he's looking, rolls her eyes at him, and then flips him off.

"Oh, well darling, fuck you too," Cody responds.

"What the fuck, man? We found her, okay? So cool it. I don't understand why you have to speak to her like that and frankly, I don't care. Just don't try that chickenshit again because she deserves better than that and you of all people know that." I spit out at him.

He stares at me like I'm scum and grinds his teeth. Cody stands there seeming to contemplate over something and in a matter of seconds he is on top of me punching me senselessly in my ribs. Fuck me! I don't know if he broke something, but my body doesn't feel right. He elbows my neck in, but I am so fucking mad my testosterone levels are so high I don't even flinch.

"WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?" I yell as I flip him over and fit in a few punches. I try to hold him down because I can hear the distant cries of Erika screeching at the top of her lungs telling us to stop. I pin him down in hope of him calming down.

I try to look back at her, but the bastard finds it an opportunity to keep on going and flips me over so he's back on top. Before he can fit another punch in, Erika's hand wraps around his fist and he stops. He just surrenders.

Erika gets him to stand up and places her hands on his face, using her thumbs to rub the tears now streaming down his face.

"You're okay now. I promised remember. I promised you. I'm here." she coos at him. He picks her up and places her on the ledge outside the store and hugs her between her legs. Ew.

I walk out the store, probably unnoticed.

I know we aren't a thing. I know we aren't dating. I know she has issues. I know that Cody has been there longer, but none of that matters; atleast not to me. Something deep and primal inside me is telling me that Erika is mine and that I have to go and protect her, claim my property because I don't want her with anyone but me. Only me. I don't care if that's selfish. That's how she makes me feel. Regular rules and sense doesn't even apply anymore. Might as well throw the rules out the window because that's what she's done to me; changed my life forever.

"Joseph..." she says loud enough for me to hear. I look back at her and Cody and now his head is on her left shoulder and his arms wrapped around her waist.

"No, Erika, don't worry I'm fucking alright." Lies. I wasn't. I was far from it.

I don't know what made me say that. It went against every instinct inside me telling me to take her to the hotel and I walked away, not just from her, but from her life because she's there with him and not me. So I guess she's made her decision. I just never thought I'd make mine, not this one.

 Cody's POV:

"Joseph..." I hear her say. Ugh, I don't want any guy's name in her mouth but mine. Especially his.

"No, Erika, don't worry I'm fucking alright." That dickwad needs to watch his mouth around her before I lose my fucking cool. Who am I kidding? Ha, my cool was lost the minute I snapped. I don't know why I snapped and right now with this nasty migraine I could not care less. I dive into her neck with little control of where my limbs fall and wrap my arms around her waist to feel her warmth radiate towards me.

I hear her groan and usually I'd be delighted to hear anything come out of her sweeth mouth, but I know that right here with me isn't where she wants to be. She's here because she pitites me, because she "owes" me, because she needs to show me I'm "important", but how can I feel any of that when I know her mind is wandering to some other guy. I sigh and try to say something, but my lack of energy forces me to stay down within the comforts of her body.

She should go. She should go to him. The thought makes me cringe, but I already know she'd never forgive me for keeping her apart from her boyfriend. I'm already in deep for touching his pretty face.

"G.." is all I can manage. Jesus, he must of fucked me up pretty bad. Either that or I'm love drunk.

"Codes.. don't talk." Oh, gosh. It's been a while since she'd called me Codes. I try to smile, but even that hurts.

I shake my head because words aren't going to help me now.

"What? No? No to what?" she asks confused.

I gesture for her to go and point to the direction where he was walking.

She looks at me and it clicks, but she just stares at me. I try to tell her that I'll be okay or atleast I'll try to be okay. I try to tell her that she can go and she has my blessing and I don't want to be the one who stands in the way anymore, but most of all I try to tell her that I love her. I always have and always will.

She smiles. I wonder if she got all that.

Damn, I must be bonkers because who the hell would get all of that in a look. I look down and wait for another day to tell her what I meant.

"I understand," she says as if reading my mind, "I love you, too." She makes some calls and gets me a ride, tells me thank you, and dashes of to her prince charming. I just hope prince charming has half the brains to keep her.