Barbara Dunkelman x reader Reboot

Part 6

-Your Pov-

You sighed to yourself again as you sat in your office, and then tried to focus on doing a lifestream. You had no idea why you had agreed to put together the " meme team" for Dragonball FighterZ. As you thought this, you watched and tried to salvage the fight, and turn it into a win. You slowly began to win, and then you did your best to keep up a running commentary and focus on the streaming. Questions kept flooding into the chat, and you sighed a little bit when you saw that they were mostly asking about Barbara, and what had happened between you and her.

Comments to the effect of, ' Why did Barbara get with Trevor,' popped in on one end of the spectrum, or people commenting that you would be a lot cuter with Barbara, or they thought the two of you were already in a relationship. On the other end of the spectrum, were people attacking the podcast where the two of them had revealed their relationship. People were commenting down things to the effect of, ' Didn't they see how uncomfortable (y/n) was and yet they kept teasing him?' Or it was people wondering why they would tease you for having a crush.

" Okay guys, I've been getting a lot of comments about the podcast, and then Trevor and Barbara, and how I feel about it. Let me just try and put them all to rest right now," you said, trying to be diplomatic about it. " Yeah, so I did have a bit of a crush on Barbara. But, it was a recent thing. It wasn't like they were teasing me about losing the love of my life or anything like that. On top of that, to work at Roosterteeth, you kinda need to have a thick skin. We tease each other and give each other shit all the time, so you kinda have to be able to take it. But, the flip side is that we all respect each other and stop if someone is really uncomfortable. If you watch that podcast, Barbara tells them to leave me alone, and then they do. It's about boundaries guys."

As you finish that sentence, you reflect on just how many lies managed to be in that statement. Sure, you did have a thick skin and you didn't mind a little bit of teasing here and there. In fact, if you had only recently developed feelings for Barbara, then it would have been the most harmless thing in the world for them to tease you. It was funny in a way, gaining the courage to confess to a girl on the day she shows you a new boyfriend. And yet, it wasn't like that. You had loved Barbara all your life, and then watched through all the boyfriends, and had finally deciding things were going to be different when you confessed, and you had lost before you even had a chance. God knows you had had no other choice but to accept the teasing, lest you admit you had been in love with Barbara all your life.

Thinking this, you saw the comments still saying the same thing, and then you sighed and just let them say what they wanted, going back to playing the video games and trying to focus. Normally, playing video games took your mind off everything. And yet, all you could think about was Barbara and how she sucked at fighting games, and always tried to beat you at them, no matter how many times she failed. You tried to keep reminding yourself you had a girlfriend now, and yet none of it made any sense to you.

You had been spending more time with Margaret lately, and it was great. The two of you got along most of the time, save for a few times she lost her temper with you seemingly out of nowhere. You'd hooked up a few times, and the two of you were connected. And yet, it was never her you thought about. If you let your thoughts drift, they always came back to Barbara, the girl you had loved ever since she came over to play Mario Kart.

Your older sister Ally had been useless when you called her for advice. All she would say to you was something to the effect of, " Here's what you need to do (y/n). Break up with Margaret, find Barbara, tell her you love her. Seize the day, and then that ass and you make me an aunt." She said that like it was the easiest thing in the world, and like that would do anything other than make things much more complicated. Whenever you mentioned this to Ally, she would always shrug and then tell you to go for it anyways. " My little brother is not going to lose his girl to a dude who came in his own mouth one time," Ally would tell you, and you would laugh and agree, but never do anything.

Shaking your head, you tried to let go of all that and think about Margaret. And yet, you could never force yourself to think of her in the same way you had thought about Barbara. You and Barbara just had this bond, going back to when the two of you were children, best friends and you wanted to be more. The two of you could spend days together, never running out of things to say or do together. In all honesty, you could see yourself finding something new to love about her on your deathbed.

But the stream ended, and then your phone buzzed, a text from Margaret, who you had to keep reminding yourself was your girlfriend, and not Barbara. You had to remind yourself you were supposed to feel the way you felt about Barbara about Margaret. It wasn't right or fair to anyone involved. And so, you stood up, doubts swarming in your mind to go and meet Margaret.

( let me know what you thought. Short, but it filled it's purpose of showing the reader's doubts)