-Your Pov-
After some time, your breathing steadies, and then you force yourself to stand up, and then do a little bit of pacing in the bathroom, and then you wipe your eyes. When you're convinced you've done a good enough job cleaning up, you force yourself to head out for lunch and get something to eat. You head down to a Burger King, and then sit down and begin to eat to yourself. You idly note all of the couples there, most of them high school or college students, which makes you remember all the times you and Barbara would come down here when the two of you were children and young adults.
Thinking this for a few moments, you finish the meal and then drive back to the Roosterteeth office. You sit in the car for a few moments, and then take deep breaths, and then tell yourself you can do this, before going into the office and down the halls on the way back to where you work. On the way, you get some people teasing you, and you do your best to banter with them the best you can. You manage to make it into your office without having any other meltdowns, and then you sit down and try to record something for your show that you have.
As you sit there and work for a little bit, there's a knock on the door, and you look over to see Barbara. You smile sadly, and invite her in, and then she sits in a chair across from you. " You okay," she asks after a few moments, and then you not at her, and the two of you sit silence for a little bit.
" I'm fine," you tell her again. " I mean, I was a little surprised is all when you told me about Trevor. And yeah, I mean, I was going to tell you about it today, but I'm unlucky I guess." She smiles when you say this, and then begins to push a ball in between her hands.
" I was surprised too. I never thought you had a crush on me," she says. " Were you being serious about that, or were you just playing along with it for the sake of the podcast?" Idly, you note to yourself this would be the best out to the question you have, and you want to take it for a little bit, but you end up nodding.
" Yeah. I kinda started having feelings for you recently, and was gonna tell you, but you know," you say, trying to make it sound like a joke, but there's a catch in your voice, and then you realize how much this all sucks. You can't even tell her the feelings you had for her had been there since the two of you were children, and you couldn't imagine the day they would ever go away, at least not without breaking down again, and you hated it when Barbara saw you cry.
" Oh," she says, and she looks like she's deep in thought and like she's onto something, but then she just shrugs in the end. " Sorry to hear that. I'm sorry about how everyone's been teasing you ever since that podcast."
" It's fine," you repeat, and she nods and the two of you go back to sitting in silence for a little bit, and then she turns to look at you.
" You're still my best friend," she says. " I just wanted to let you know that I will always have time for you, and I will always be sure to make time for you." You nod when she says this, and then she stands up to leave and she smiles and waves at you. When she leaves the room, you close the door behind her and allow yourself a few sniffles before going back to recording what it is you had been working on.
It takes forever to work, and as you do, your phone goes off and you look over to see Ally texting you, asking how it went with Barbara. Sighing, you toss it aside, not in the mood to deal with her right now. The day ends eventually, and then you get up and walk down to the car, and then think about where you want to go.
If this were a normal Valentine's Day, then you and Barbara would watch some crappy romance movie together, all the while insulting it, and making fun of all the cliches in it. But, you supposed she would already be on a date with Trevor. You could also go home and watch the movie by yourself, but you knew it would only make you sadder. And so, you found your car parked in front of some old run down bar, that none of your friends would be caught dead in.
A smile on your face, you went into the bar, and then began to do shots, feeling your mind loosen up with each one. Idly, you noted to yourself you didn't have a designated driver, and you idly marked to yourself that Barbara would usually be your ride home when you got drunk. Thinking this, you also noted to yourself that tonight she wouldn't be available to do that, and rather than worry, you just downed another shot.
This went on for awhile, and then you reached for a shot glass, only to find it completely empty, and then you sighed. Before you could go over to the bar to ask for another one, a waiter came over and set one down in front of you. " From her," he said, pointing to a redhead a few rows down, who seemed pretty, although that might have been the alcohol. She waved at you, and you waved back and then went to drink it, and then she got up and joined you.
" Margaret," she says, holding out a hand, and then you take it. You introduce yourself to her, and then the two of you start to talk for a little bit, and then she eventually stood up. " I don't want to sound too forward, but will you come home with me?"
Under most times, you would think about how you and Barbara both agreed sex should be special, but you nodded this time, and stood up to go home with her.
( let me know what you thought. if you read the first one, you know who Margaret is and what she means for this story, if not it'll be a surprise)
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Barbara Dunkelman x reader Reboot
Fanfiction(y/n) (l/n) was in love with someone his entire life, the amazing Barbara Dunkelman. The two of them were great friends, but he lost her to someone else. He rushes into another relationship, not wanting to be alone. So what happens when that relatio...
