Falling for him(completed)

History 2

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I was 16 years old when I fell in love with a guy that I met and we started music together. My cousin knew his cousins and they wanted us to be together. Luke and I were very close, he would pick me up in the mornings and we would order breakfast. We would go to school and chill together with my cousin and his and my sister. After school we would all head to the studio to go sing and rap and so on. It was amazing. South Africa started recognising us and from there our careers took off. My cousin also fell in love with a guys named KK, they were mad in love she got pregnant at the age of 16, my family was happy that they were financially stable, so they never had a problem. She had twins. I had a best friend named Toby, he was there for me. All of my friends were there. Toby sadly committed suicide cause his "mother" lied to him about who he was. I was never able to forgive ever since that day. Luke was there and we had our first kiss, he wanted sex, I said no I wasn't ready. He waited for me. But I still wasn't ready, he starting becoming jealous that KK and my cousin had kids, he wanted his own. We were dating for about a year now, I told him that we could have a sperm donor and he donates his sperm to me. He agreed and I got pregnant with twins. He proposed three months into the pregnancy. My mom was happy and my sister was excited. We all were, wedding shopping. I thought. Going out looking for dresses, venue, a wedding designer and all. What I dream come true. Although I just wished my dad was here, to walk me down the isle. Now there were two months left and things just went south with our relationship. He had an affair which affected me, I became so stressed. I was heart broken. I only had my sister to talk to. I couldn't tell my mom cause she was going to kill him. My sister said I should walk away, but I said no. We going to have a family together I didn't want my kids to go through what I went through as a kid. I couldn't see my dad as much as I wanted to because my parents were divorced. My mom was and still is very stubborn and he wasn't around a lot, it helped clear his head, he did remarry though. He came back to South Africa and he got hit by a truck. He was in a coma for three months and it wasn't a journey you would wanna go through as a young girl. I still remembered the his last words to my sister and I. He said he loved us and he would never trade us. He said we were his favorite people, he said if we were not alive and never allowed him to love us he would have been dead by now. He said my mom was the greatest thing that had happen to him, she just never got married to him at the right time. He felt like it was wrong timing. They were young and he mostly wanted to live his life, he forgot that he had a daughter and a wife at home and one more baby coming on the way which was me. He apologized for his mistakes and we all forgave him. But we never thought that the time we forgave him would be the time we say goodbye. I didn't want that. I wanted my kids to be happy with their father. I wanted them to be spoiled by their father, their happiness was more important than mine was, well that is what I always believed, but my sister is against such, even my mom. I told my sister I understood that my feelings weren't child's play, but I was positive that we would get through this together. One night he came back home with roses and my favourite chocolates and he apologized, he said he was sorry for everything, he admitted his affair, who it was with, how long it was and so on. I also couldn't blame him, I mean we getting married yet I couldn't give up my virginity to him. I couldn't. A tear slipped down my face, but I wanted him to wait. I wanted our sex to be special, I wanted to give it up on our honeymoon. But no, his dick was in my enemy's vagina. I was disgusted. I was hurt. My sister helped me get through my tough time. He stopped the affair and he did it on time for our wedding. It was the wedding day and I was nervous, scared and excited. I looked down at my 6 month belly and I was huge cause I was receiving twins. When I looked at my belly it reminded me about Luke, the times we had and the times we will have. I was happy. My make up was done, my hair was done my bride's maids and honour were ready. The colour of the wedding was mint green and white, it was beautiful. My dress was downstairs and I wanted to get it since I didn't want anyone to see how my dress looked. As I walked downstairs I saw Luke and Bianca, my enemy kiss. I walked up to them and he looked so sorry. He tried to explain, but I slapped the living shit outta him. I also slapped Bianca, I started pulling her hair, my mom came downstairs and I was crying while I was fighting both em', I couldn't breathe cause I suffered from Asthma. I became dizzy and everything just went black. When I woke up I was told my heart rate was low, very low. They thought I wouldn't make it. While I was in my coma they took the first baby our he didn't make it, he was too fragile. I knew that also my baby girl wouldn't make it cause it would be the same. I woke up while they were taking out my daughter and I was in pain, she got out and she cried for two minutes then she stopped. I looked around me and I saw my mom, sister, Luke and Bianca. I started crying and making a noise cause why would they allow Luke in here, even worse Bianca. My babies are dead cause of these two. They gave me stress, my pregnancy was healthy, but she just had to be spiteful and bitter and ruin my marriage, my family. I was torn. I got out of hospital 3 weeks later and I was so distant. Luke kept on trying to apologize, I said no, Bianca felt bad and she tried. My sister beat her ass and told her to not come back. I was broken. I knew I had my two favourite people to talk to, but sometimes you get use to talking to the person you were going to spend your life with, but no. He ruined that. Honestly at such a time, Toby would be there. He would give me the strength that I needed, the laughter that I wanted, the happiness that I craved. He was the strongest, my mom, my sister and I depended on him. He was amazing. I was the closest to him though. I never knew about the lie he lived it hurt him deeply, it hurt me deeply to the point I wanted to join him. I think about and I wonder what would life be like if he was still around? What would he have done differently to take away all the pain. Think like Toby, be like Toby. That is all I thought about, but it didn't work cause my best friend promised me he won't leave me, yet he did. My sister let me go out more and it worked. And now I'm leaving my dream.

I was now in tears, I was crying a river and all Quavo did was hold me tight and comfort me, he reminded me of Toby. Toby would be quiet and he would hold me close and wait patiently for me to calm down. I felt safe when Qua held me, that's when I knew I was falling for him. I calmed down and just laid there, peacefully and quietly. All I thought about was the pain that Luke put me through. I sat up and wiped my nose. "You okay?" He asked. "Yeah, I'm good thanks, mind f I go to the bathroom and wash my face?" "Nah, you good, you can go its the second door in the room." He said directing me. His room did have doors, it had three doors, I'm guessing the dressing room cause when I passed it, the door was slightly open and I saw clothes there, then it was the bathroom. Wonder what's behind the third door. I shrug it off and enter the bathroom, I pee then I wash my hands and my face. I heard the door open so I was guessing it was Qua, I could feel him staring. He walked up behind me. "You good?" He asked a bit concerned. "Yeah, I'm just not over the whole situation yet." I say. I sit on the bathroom counter. "Well Angela I'm sorry about your best friend, but I want you to find peace, and I think you moving down to the Nawf side should be you finding peace, and tbh with you, if you really weren't ready to let go, you wouldn't have come to Atlanta to pursue your career, you would've stayed in SA. I believe if you weren't ready to move on and let your emotions go, you wouldn't have told me about your past, you would have let it eat you up. I think you feel a lot better that you had someone to talk to about your history, I think you were taking a chance and wanted to see if I would judge you, but no I didn't. Angela, if you need anyone to talk to, I'm here." He says with a beautiful smile on his face. His hands around my waist. He was gorgeous. "Qua, thank you, I guess your right about this whole situation, I do feel better, its just that I think about it all the time, I mean I can't love anymore, my heart is cold, my soul is black, I'm broken. I can't even tell my family I love them. I'm not at peace, I know I'm not, I still claim a dark soul and a heartless heart. I'm not the person I once was, I'll never be." I say with a tear running down my face. Quavo puts his hands on my face and wipes my tear. "Angela, stop. You can love, you just scared it might happen again, but look, you have your family, y'all may not get along sometimes, but that is why God doesn't let you choose your family, it's cause whatever the battle may be, you and your family will fight it together. Don't be afraid to tell the people you know you love, you love em'. You thinking about it too much, let it go. Your beautiful, you fuckin' 19 forget about that shit, leave it where you got it. If you left the place you got that shit, I know for a fact the past stayed with it. Think positive. Your an amazing person. You just need a person to know your worth. And I believe the best people is you, your mother and sister. Y'all stay strong." I hugged him tight. "Qua, thank you. I really appreciate you. Your right, I gotta move on and face the next challenges. Thank you Qua." I say while looking into his eyes. "You know i didn't know you were so soft and emotional about shit." I say, with a huge smile planted on my face. "What a way to ruin the mood." He says while smacking his lips. I laugh at how adorable he was. "You cute man!" I say while laughing. We both laugh. "You got jokes huh?" He says with a chuckle. "I guess I do Mr. Marshall." I say while I wrap my hands around his neck and before you know it, Qua kisses me, I kiss him back and I open my mouth to allow him to put his tongue in my mouth. He carries me and puts me down on his bed, it's now a full out make out session. He stops and he starts kissing on my neck and explores my body with his hands, he gives me hickeys all over my neck. This can't turn into sex. No I'm not ready. I mean he has a whole girl. I stop him. "Qua sto- stop." I stutter. "You-sure-you-wanna-stop?" He asks in between his kisses. "Y-es." I stutter again. He stops. "Qua I'm sorry, but it can't happen. I'm not ready and-." He stops me. "Hey, it's cool, not rushing it or whatever, let's just watch a movie and cuddle." He says with a smile. I smile back. "Qua I don't know about you, but I wanna laugh, let's watch ridiculousness." I say. "Oh, okay we can do that to." He says. He puts ridiculousness and cuddled. We laughed and had commented on the show. He kissed me on my forehead and we slept. I'm really falling for him.
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Hey guys. Hope y'all good, how do y'all feel about Qua and Angela kissing?
Guys I wrote about suicide and suicide is a big thing that us as teenagers do, and think it resolves our problems, but we forgetting about the ones that love us and how it will affect them, when I spike about the character Toby, he was my actual best friend and my father really did pass. Guys I was in a dark place and had a few friends support me. Guys do me a favour and not kill yourself. You want to know where your future holds you. If you have always dreamt of having a family or have an amazing career, don't kill yourself! You killing your future. If you're in a dark place I once was in. Dm me on my IG: _.isss.angie
Guys thank you.
Love you lots