It's Lonely.

day 45

ive been in the hospitable for two weeks

fuck you Shit

why cant i die?

do you know why i always wore my jacket at school

i cut myself

and if i couldnt, id cover my arms with loads of foundation

i was asked once

i was stupid that day

didnt have my foundation

and we had church

i was forced to take my jacket off

i was working with my parents in the yard

i said

it worked

thankfully

anymore questions

how did no one find about my

schizophrenia

because if those who knew told

would get sued

lets see what else

i was a little slow

because concentrating was hard

i guess it was pretty easy

ha

do you know how many times i really about to kill kat

like my voices wanted it as much as me

i always say ill kill someone

wonder where that came from

lets see

know how i fall or trip

guess it was a spurge of voices

er

oh how im a spawn of satan

the voices hon

theres a lot people who dont know

now you do

yea im alive

but now

i got stitches and sitting in a "comfortable" hospitable room

getting checked each day

they took all my stuff

i asked for my diary

they were fine with it

but i got my nurse watching everything i write

yes i can see you kai

family has visited

in tears

happy to see im alive

well

i dont wanna write in this diary anymore

think ive explained enough

um

bye Shit