But, Sometimes I Wonder

Prologue - Changes

"Baby, have you seen my work shoes?" I yelled from the modern styled joint walk-in closet, I shared with my longtime girlfriend Kiersey.

Although lately she's been feeling more like a roommate. We're never on the same page. Which leads to pointless disputes over trivial things.

Like now, for example, she's ignoring me, she knows how much I grotesques that.

I walked out of the wardrobe, instantly wishing I hadn't. In fact, I wanted to run back in there and lock the doors. This is every man's worst fear.

She's sitting at the foot of the bed with my phone in her palms. Scrolling and looking intensely at the small device.

I'm finding my self-clicking my two bare feet together chanting any place but home. In my mind continuously but it's not working. I'm still here, about to face my problems head-on.

"Who's Sierra?" Kiersey pushed out calmly, her eyes remaining on the petite screen.

My curiosity peaked at the question. How'd she know her name? I strategically saved her number under work.

"S-She's just a co-worker" I croaked out stumbling over my words. It wouldn't take a genius to know I'm lying. I just never thought it'd catch up to me. Kiersey hasn't been on her P's and Q's lately. And I have an amorous sexual appetite. I'd grown tired of us going months without sex. So I looked for it elsewhere.

I'm not proud of it by far. Hell, my mom raised me better than this. But, I needed something to take the edge off. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells in my own home. Nothing I do pleases Kiersey anymore. I feel like I'm just a burden to her.

She'd never admit it because I can at least meet her financial needs.

She scoffed finally meeting my eyes. "At least respect me enough not to lie Marc."

I sighed giving up the fight I was more than willing to put up. But, she's right, she deserves the truth. After all these years we've endeared together. All of the things we've been through. I owe her the respect.

"What do you want to know?" I dragged my feet to where she was, taking a seat beside her.

All of a sudden this felt like a courtroom. Except she's the judge, jury, and prosecutor.

Kier glanced at me pensively "How long has this been going on?" She interrogates trying to mask the hurt in her eyes. But, I saw it, and it was enough to ruin me.

What have I done?

Not being able to face my actions my eyes left hers while I hung my head low in shame. I faintly answered her with the time frame of seven months.

Instantly her calm demeanor distinguished.

"SEVEN MONTHS!" She yelled standing to her feet before I had time to react she propelled my phone into the wall.

I wanted to get up, grab her, and demand to know what the fuck her problem was? Considering that was a nine hundred dollar phone.

But, I did none of those things. She has a right to react this way. If I was in her shoes right now, I don't know what I'd do.

The technology fell to the ground. Undoubtedly barely useable.

"What is it, Marcus?

Huh? Am I not good enough for you?"
She perplexed

"Baby you are good enough. She doesn't mean anything to me." My words were unconvincing to her and myself.

When I think about it, their are qualities Si possesses that I like. She listens to me and looks at me like I'm worth something more than a meal ticket.