Poetry Feelings

thirty-eight

love and heartbreak differs for everyone,
although i can tell you a few things,
i can tell you the six inevitable stages,
you go through.
first? well first comes shock.
the realization, the helplessness.
the i-can't-live-without-him.
second comes the tears.
the screaming. the shivering.
the lying-in-bed-and-i-cannot-move.
third is usually anger.
the cursing. the blaming.
the fuck-you-i-hate-your-guts.
fourth is fear.
the anxiety. the worrying.
the my-heart-is-pounding-i-wonder-if-he-misses-me-too.
fifth is forgiveness.
the talking. the trying.
the please-let-me-back-in.
sixth is when your heart grows colder.
the ignorance comes. the repressing.
the swear-i-don't-care.