Silent Pain

closer GET?

[Lol been a while since I updated this.

#writersblock]

Lapis POV

The first few days at the hospital were... interesting. Steven was definitely right. Peridot didn't talk much. And to my surprise, I found myself watching her.

Usually after breakfast or lunch, when we would be either at activity or in out room, I would look up and study what she was doing.

Reading, mostly. Though I have caught her here and there drawing. I couldn't see what she was drawing, but she seemed focused on her paper.

And when reading, that's when she seemed most relaxed. Her shoulders drooped a bit, and she would set her head on her hand while holding the book with the other.

After our... "introduction", she seemed to ignore my presence. There was once when I awkwardly followed her to the lunch room, and I sat across from her. I tried signing some questions, but she just poked at the mediocre food.

Although I hated being ignored, I was fascinated. I had never seen someone go so long without spea... I mean signing, anything.

She really did enjoy solitude.

It was an uncomfortable silence, but neither of us could break it. She couldn't speak, and I couldn't hear.

I would have thought id be used to that by now, but I guess I was wrong.

And now we were once again sitting, her reading, and me... pretending to draw. I was studying her again. Her face seemed oddly disinterested today, and her mouth would open as if she was giving dissapointed sighs.

I looked back down and tapped my paper, then back up. To my surprise she was sliding off her bed, and walking over the the window. She had her hands together, and she sat down at the desk.

I bit my lip and stretched a bit, trying to see what she had In her hands. She seemed to just be fiddling with something but I couldn't see.

This troubled me. I was always good at connecting with people, even with not being able to hear them. But peridot seemed determined.

Well so was I.

I closed my book and sat up, seeing her stiffen a bit as I walked over. She shoved whatever she was holding in her pocket, and acted like she was just looking out the window.

I tapped her on the shoulder, to which she turned her head slightly with a questioning look. I gave a small smile.

'Hello.'

She blinked then turned more, lifting up her hands.

'Do you want something?'

She seemed a bit off, shifting a bit in her chair. I shrugged.

'Do you always watch the cars?'

I decided to not mention that I saw something in her hand, in case it was something she'd get mad at me for. I'd observed her getting frustrated and storming off, but whenever I talked to her she seemed so much more timid...

'Sometimes. I got tired of reading. What about you?'

I got on my knees, getting even with her currant height and scooting up to the desk.

'Yeah. I wish it were activity... Though admittedly it's not very fun either.'

I layed my head on the desk, and she didn't sign an answer. I was afraid I'd made it awkward, but she nodded, laying her head on the desk as well.

We stayed like that for awhile, when I got an idea. I straitened up with a goofy smile.

'Wanna go outside?'

She raised a brow, before signing. Her answer

'But we aren't allowed to go outside.'

I looked at her.

'Please don't tell me you've never been outside...'

She shrugged. 'Once or twice. I didn't do anything special or anything.'

Only once or twice? 'Well that's no good. C'mon. We can go walk around the park!'

She shook her head. ' We'll get in trouble. And half the staff hate me already.'

I tilted my head to that. I can understand them maybe not interacting, but hating?

I gave a playful smile though. 'Well you have fun sitting here alone. You won't tell on me will you?'

She paused, clearly thinking again, before giving what I could only assume was a sigh, and lifting her hands.

'I'm not a snitch. If you get in trouble though...' she actually seemed a little concerned.

I shrugged and patted her shoulder. 'Thanks. And I won't. I've done this before.'

She raised a brow, but I chose not to give her an answer, instead walking back over to my bed to smile to myself.

I think I'm getting closer.