Silent Pain

Gentle

When you awkwardly forgot you had a chapter to post and kinda lied to your readers.

Sorry guys its like... 3 days late at this point but here it is XD

Also... since school is starting... i think im just gonna focus on "I need This, I need you!" For awhile.

This doesnt nescicerily mean im ignoring this book, just... expect a weekly update of that, and maybe the occasional update of this.

Thank you and enjoy LOL

Lapis POV.

After a few more hours on the train, me and peridot had packed everything back up, and had it all on the edge of the car. It was a warm silence, and I kept my eyes open to look for the next town.

I knew peridot still hadn't told me something, because she was messing with her cube again, just like this morning. I didn't want to stress her out anymore by pressing for an answer, but it worried me.

But i forced my mind to think about something less worrying. Memories of me and her from the past couple months. My heart still beat a bit faster at the thought of the pool. how serious and sometimes even content she looked while reading. But... most of all...

That sparkle in her eye when I agreed to come with her. Her eyes had never been a more brilliant and beuatiful green. She was happy. Unbelievably happy that I wanted to stay as much as she wanted me to. She did seem more relaxed since we left, which i was grateful for.

But i felt a poke at my side and turned to see she had scooted closer, looking at me with a small smile before turning and pointing. A town was coming up, just down a hill from the tracks.

I smiled as well and pulled my backpack onto my shoulders, and scooted, resting a hand on peridots arm. "Ill do a count, okay? Remember to roll." I squeezed her arm lightly, and she nodded, but kept her eyes on the town.

"One" we got more into a crouching position, and i unconsiosly kept my hand on her arm.

"Two" i realized, jerking my hand away and watching peri grip the duffel bag with her left hand.

"Three" i threw myself, hitting my back against the ground and rolling. Because of the hill, i rolled more and more. I panicked a bit, pushing my forearms out to try and stop myself. I think i hit a rock, because i shrunk back as a sharp pain slashed across my arm.

I cursed under my breath as i actually slowed and stopped, gripping my arm and clenching my jaw. I couldnt help but tear up a bit at the pain. It felt worse than it looked, but blood did stream away and down my arm.

Before i knew it i felt hands on my shoulders and a familier blonde at my side. She was already rooting through the duffel bag, and pulled out some sort of rag. It wasnt mine, and i hadnt ever seen it before...

But she turned and crouched in front of me, a bit panicked as she gently layed the rag on my wound. I squeked in pain, but held the rag on as peridot zipped the bag back up. She still looked worried, and moved back in front of me again.

'Are you okay?'

I smiled. "It looks worse than it feels... im okay. But maybe we should find a public bathroom or something to clean it off in..." she nodded immidiately and helped me stand up.

She stopped for a second, but moved and dusted me off. I hadnt realized i had gotten dirty, but looking at her i saw i must have, because she was as well. She paused again but lightly rubbed my cheek, blushing and turning away as she grabbed the bag and brushed herself off as well.

The touch to my cheek made me blush slightly as well. But it was more the nervous action of her pulling away that made me confused. Surely she knew by now i wouldnt have minded...

But i just kept holding my arm. And began slowly walking as peridot picked up the bag. We passed a few people, but noone bothered us. Peridot started to tug me toward a small park, and a bathroom.

She gently released my hand to turn back to me, walking backwards as i moved to the sink. I winced as i pulled off the cloth, sucking in a breath. Peridot gently pull it under the faucet, glancing at me, then turned it on.

The cold water kindof numbed the wound, and washed out the blood and even a little dirt. Peridot moved to the next sink with the rag, cleaning it and wringing it out before returning to my side. She turned the water off and more securely fastened the rag over it.

It felt 10 times better, but it did make me nervous because i realized: we had no way to medically help ourselves if something serious happened. I wanted to say it outloud, but remembered peridot was already a bit stressed. This would not help.

Besides. We had eachother.
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We walked around a bit, not finding anything too eventfull, and i noticed a few people looking at us, but i payed no mind. Peridot just followed wherever i turned, but looked around curiosly as well.

We made it back to the park, and i layed on the bench, holding my arm, while peridot settled on the ground, as close to me as probably physiccly possible.

I could already see her eyes drooping, and a her face stretched into a yawn. I wanted to sleep as well, but what if it rained?

A few more people passed by, but when peridot sneezed (which was adorable) a tall woman with sunglasses stopped and looked at us. I sat up, smiling and patting peridots shoulder, much to her confusion.

The woman said something, smiling as peridot froze and looked up. I was trying to read her lips, but i was tired...

She spoke again, crouching down and tilting her head. Peridots eyes widened, and she looked back at me, before returning and slowly nodding.

I was confused, but suddenly peridot was pulling me up and the woman began to walk away, but glancing back as peridot picked up our bags. She paused to hand the bags to me while walking backwards a bit.

'Theres a homeless shelter. Shes gonna take us there. Its better than outside, right?' She gave me a hopeful smile, and i couldnt help but smile back.

"Alright."

We caught up and followed the woman, but i was a bit wary, which faded as i saw the homeless shelter come into veiw. The lady slowed and opened the door for us, and i imiediatly took peridots hand as we stepped inside.

Her hand was stiff for a second, but soon she gripped my hand back, rubbing her thumb over my knuckles to comfort me.

The woman walked around us, gesturing and talking. Peridot nodded once or twice, then the woman walked through the building, i guess checking on people. I was just glad to be indoors. I gently tugged peridot over to an empty corner, laying my arm in my lap and frowning.

I felt stupid for getting hurt so easily, but i remembered if i hadnt stuck my arms out i mightve gotten a deeper gash on my back, or my chest.

Peridot had scooted closer, looking at me with worried eyes. 'Is it hurting?'

I just shook my head, lifting my hands to quickly sign 'I think it needs to be cleaned again' and putting my hands back in my lap.

She nodded lightly, but yawned again. I smiled and wrapped my arm around her back, pulling her head onto my shoulder and attempting to whisper "im okay... you can sleep"

I was good at keeping a level tone and volume, but i had always avoided yelling or whispering. But peridot seemed to give a small sigh and obey, closing her eyes and keeping her head on my shoulder.

I told myself id wait and go clean it after i knew she was asleep, but i couldnt bring myself to move.

I didnt dare disturb her.

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Cute babs