Silent Pain

Train Ride Woo's

More fluff and a side of awkwardness, my children.

Lol Peri be gay in this chap.

Peridot POV.

I guess we had just leaned back and dozed off next to eachother, because when I woke, I found one of lapis's arms draped lazily over my stomach, and I instantly blushed.

But we'd been in much more intimate positions... at the pool our bodies were pretty much touching head on, while I held onto her like a child.

I both hated, and loved the memory. On one hand, it was a big step for me, and the night I realized that my "hatred" for the black haired girl made no logical sense and I didn't actually hate her...

Quite the oppisite... actually...

But on the other, I had been a coward, only getting in the pool when I was holding onto her.

I gently lifted her arm, setting it closer to her and scooting away silently to pull out the two granola bars. This was good for breakfast... right?

I put one close to her, and I opened mine, sitting at the open side of the train car and looking at the slowly brightening sky. The sun was just barely peeking, but would soon rise.

Morning.

We'd ran away, and slept in a moving train. And though I'm no Einstein, Steven had showed me a book on trains... if this train moved the average speed, about 80 MPH, we could well be 500 miles from the hospital.

Unless we had stopped somewhere when we slept, of course. Which was also entirely possible.

The sun finally flashed bright enough for me to turn slightly, and I caught another glimpse at my friend.

She twitched slightly, but the sun created a reddish orange looking streak in her hair, and across her cheek.

I stared for a moment, remembering the first day I saw her. I was stunned, and I felt that same feeling now, except... less pressure to be perfect. I guess since we knew we both had flaws...

I smiled to myself and turned back towards the rising sun, closing my eyes and thinking to all the stupid memories.

The time lapis had tricked Steven into leading his mom away so we could take a few extra pudding cups, or the time I had mockingly hid her sketchbook, to which the feisty teen had pinned me down till I agreed to tell her where it was. Or even the time she woke me up in the middle of the might to point out a comet in the sky.

Simple but fun things I'd never done. I'd never wanted to waste time doing anything. Instead I read as many books as possible, and wasted my time staring off to somewhere I thought I'd never reach.

But lapis... changed me...

As I was about to cheekily remember other dumb moments, I felt arms wrap around my stomach and a mischievous giggle in my ear. I blushed, jumping a bit, before frowning and wiggling defiantly to shake her off.

She let go and instead moved to the side of me, plopping her head into my lap with her signature sly smile.

"Morning, Peri." She turned to the sun, relaxing again.

I forced myself to remember this was LAPIS. she was never one to take mind of my bubble, so the contact shouldn't surprise me...

But my heart was racing at the strange hug, and how she casually used my lap as a pillow.

I just nodded, leaning forward a bit to take the sudden pressure of my hands, hesitantly putting one on her shoulder as i looked back at the sun rise.

Another thing... I hated the silence. It wasn't new, but uncomfortable at some points. I'd always hated my inability, but not near as much as when I was near her.

The simple things, like returning her "good morning", or thanking her for agreeing to this crazy escapade.

But she didn't care, I knew that. She was fine. She knew I would if it was convenient. Which this position of hers in my lap was anything but.

"Doesnt it feel nice...? I feel like I'm actually breathing... all this fresh air... compared to the hospital..." she mumbled, as I saw a smile appear on her face. "Its amazing..."

I smiled too, patting her shoulder as a sort of agreement, before setting my other hand in my lap near her hair.

The sunrise then was the best I ever had, and it was the least constrained as well.

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'So are we getting off at the next town, or do you want to keep riding for as long as possible?'

Lapis crumbled up her granola wrapper, thinking. "Well the train wont go forever, and we kinda made the mistake of not grabbing drinks..." she huffed, smiling and looking back up at me. "Getting off would be wise. Unless it's a really old, beat up, nowhere town."

I snorted my nose, smiling and shaking my head. 'That's fair.'

The blue eyed girl pulled the duffel bag toward her, grabbing a white tee shirt and Jean shorts, along with undergarments.

I was spacing slightly, but blinked when my friend cleared her throat. "Peri, I know it's a bit awkward... but I'm gonna change. You can turn around if you want... just wanted to warn you, heh."

She smiled and immediately pulled her shirt off, neatly placing it on the ground, then pulling off her pants and doing the same.

I hadn't seen her like that since the pool. I faced down, but I was blushing and sneaking glances.

She turned around, unclipping her bra and putting it in her small pile, immediately taking her other, cleaner one, and moving to slip off her underwear.

I turned more, still blushing, but unable to look away as her underwear slid down her smooth legs, and she kicked them off, and pulling up her other pair.

At that point I whipped my head sharply away, not feeling like getting caught being... well... a perv.

I could feel how red my face was. Put I shook my head and pulled out my cube, trying to push the less then angelic thoughts away before lapis saw me.

But instead I felt her hand on my shoulder. "Hey... you good? I mean... you usually only play with that when youre thinking, or stressed... just wanna... check..." she chuckled a bit, but looked into my eyes, concerned.

I just gave a small smile, nodding. I slipped it back into my pocket and I realized that she had been tense, and she relaxed.

"Glad to know. I'm gonna keep an eye out for the town. You cam change too if you want... not that you have too..." she chuckled again, then moved and sat against the side of the opening, staring out.

Again the sun made her look stunning, and I stared for a second before standing up and feeling my cheeks heat up again.

I liked her... alot.

1st step of a crush, see crush.
2nd step of crush, denial.
3rd step of crush, acceptance.

Step four, five, and six come later.

Can't wait for step five hehe.

(We won't get to step six I want a slightly innocent book LOL)

The gay thoughts are coming RUN.

1214 words.