Bad boy~zach herron

10

Wednesday

Halfway through the week. Thank the lord. This week me and Zach's school relationship has gotten better I guess. A couple hellos and a some smiles. Still no big talks or anything. It's like he had a certain image at school even though he hasn't even been here that long.

Every day since my accident I have tried to get back on my board. I couldn't. I would step in the water and have a panic attack. I couldn't even swim. The water was my best friend. Now it's like it's attacking me. I normally fight back until I win. Instead I'm running from it. Trying to fight but realizing I can't. I needed help but I don't know from who. It's like I was lost in what I loved. But one thing that I loved was clear and it stuck out.

Zach.

Maybe first I had to fallow what my heart was trying to tell me to get back on track. I had to chase it or it would get worse.

For school I slipped on a hoodie and some leggings and my vans. I tied my hair in a messy bun and did quick make up. I checked in the mirror and looked. Could I see my self with zach? I mean he was perfect, he was hiding some kind of secret or talent and I just kinda had nothing. He was the most handsome person ever your eyes just get drawn to him. When your with him you feel this feeling. It's a comfort feeling but a feeling like you never want to leave him. I could stay and just talk to him for hours. I wasn't good enough.

I ran downstairs and hoped in my moms car skipping breakfast. I looked out the window to see if Zach would come.

Eventually he walked out of the garage. He had his earbuds in and he was singing along with it. I slowly and casually opened my window to hear him. He never noticed but I listened to him sing along. He was amazing. Something about his voice was calming. He was amazing.

I closed my eyes and a image of him flashed into my mind. He has a guitar in his hand and he was singing. He looked so happy. He seemed to be doing something he loved.

As he pulled away in his car I wondered why he would hide this. He never told me he was into singing or anyone. He was amazing.

My mom saw me looking out the window towards him when she came in. "So is he nice?" She asked. My head flicked over towards her with wide eyes. "Huh?" I questioned. She smiled and pickled his seat up. Was she going to ask what was with me staring at him? At his house?

"The new kid, hes cute is he nice?" My mom said. I laughed at the fact she thought he was cute and shrugged. "I don't know him to well but he seems fine and his siblings are cute" I laughed. "Really how old are his siblings?" My mom questioned. Why was she asking so many questions about them. Bro.

"Well there's Ryan who has the cutest face for a 13 year old and reese who's 6 and adorable" I replied. "Oh I thought u meant older cute kids or something" my mom nodded. I knew she was going to assume then to be cute. She always wants to see if I'm into someone. She's hoped for me to be in a relationship. Maybe she wants to have someone be here more often because she doesn't have my dad?

I have never been in a relationship. I know nothing about them. I had never desired to be in one until I met Zach. I don't know if I really wanted to be in a relationship with him actually. I didn't know this feeling. It was all knew. But I think I did.

When I got to school I met up with Kylie at lockers. She was waiting my mine with Daniel. What was he doing over here and not with his click. And why was kylie smiling so much around him?

I walked over to them and wedged in between to get to my locker. They kept taking and out of the corner of my eye I saw Kylie smile. Daniel was being very social. He always seems down and upset. But with Kylie he was new. Kylie was new with Daniel. Maybe we would all find someone?

I started walking to class when someone ran up to me. I looked over to the side and saw Zach. He scared me for a second but then I was shocked he was talking to me at school. I felt a shock of excitement go through me. I had to hide it though.

"Hey loser did I scare you?" He asked. I rolled my eyes at him and shook my head. He kept walking with me until he stepped in front of me and made me stop.

"Ok on the real side I have a question" he said. I nodded my head and listened to what he had to say.

"Why don't you surf anymore I used to watch you all the time you were so good you can't be scared of the past when you have talent like that" he said. He watched me? Why would he be untested in seeing me practice. I took a big sigh before answering. How would I answer. Your holding me back. I like you and it's catching me off guard. I can't surf because of you?

"I just I can't get back into it for a little bit I know it sounds complicated but I just need time to figure out stuff" I replied trying to put it into the best wording. He nodded his head and looked at my hand. He grabbed my empty hand and squeezed it. "I know nothing about surfing but I can help" he said. I looked into his eyes. Distracting me from reality. He was everything.

I snapped out of the trance his eyes put me in and pulled away from his hand. "I'm sorry Zach I'm just not ready" I answered and started to walk away. He grabbed my wrist and held it tight so I couldn't walk away.

"Please" he begged. His eyes widened and he looked straight at mine. I shook my head one more time and realized maybe he could help. This is what I need. "Ok I can't make you but if you change your mind.." he said and let go of my hand. He started to walk away.

"Wait" I called last minute he turned around before leaving for class. "I'll do it but if I'm not comfortable please don't judge" I laughed. He smiled and did a little dance before waking off to class.

Things might be starting to go as planned.