Cupid's assistant

Chapter 28

I didn't run very far, I stopped and fell down on something hot and soft. Tears blurring my vision so I couldn't see what was around me. I stayed like this for a while till I could no longer cry.

I whipped my face with the back of my shaking hand, I longed for someone else to be doing it for me. For someone to be holding me in their arms and telling me that it's ok. That it's all ok and everything is somehow going to work out. As I thought this I saw many people flash in my mind, surprisingly it wasn't Lizzie, or Jane, or Carrie, or Mary, or Alana, or Jacob, or James, or Xavier, nor Nathan. It wasn't even Gretchen, or Amber, or aunt Natasha, or uncle Harley, or uncle Frank, hell I didn't even think of my dad. I thought of three people that I'm not even speaking to right now. My mom, Hannah, and Simon.

I look around me taking in the setting, It was equivalent to my mood. I was in an old park sitting in hot sand, the park seemed to be forgotten about. The park was dark because of all the trees that surrounded over the top of it not letting much sunlight shine through. There was trash, vines, and broken tree limbs all around the ground. The playground equipment was falling apart with big cracks in them or it leaning sideways and big chips of paint falling off. It was obviously no longer safe to play on the play ground anymore. It was broken, abandoned, dark, and just looking at it made you feel depressed and mournful.

I was one at those rare moments where I had absolutely no idea what to do. I knew I couldn't stay here- not that I wanted to say in this haunting place anyway- and that I had to go back to school. I really didn't want to go back, I wanted to flee this place, I wanted to run from this life and start a new one where I didn't have a lying, cheating, deceitful mother or a lying, cheating, bastard of a boyfriend or a lying sister and best friend.

But of course I knew I wouldn't get very far, the school would call my parents and my dad would try to send FBI to find me. And through all my pain and suffering there was something that always kept me grounded and that was my friends and my family who I didn't want to cause worry and pain to, and then there was my anger and unfinished business back at school.

I checked my watch and saw that if I hurried I could get back to school by the end of 1st period. I picked myself up and set a look of determination on my face, pulled out my phone and texted Mary, Carrie, Jane, Lizzie, Alana, Jacob, and James and told then that it was an emergency and to meet me at my locker 10 minutes before 1st period ends. Then I ran faster than I ever have back to school to complete the unfinished business of mine.

I ran as fast as I could all the way back to school, I went to the front office signed in late and got a tardy pass. I then ran down the hallway then I saw Courtney walking out of the girls restroom. I quickly skid to a stop and called out to her. She jumped in surprise and waled over to me in a dazed and confused state. It wasn't until she got closer to me that I realize that she had been crying. I gently reached out for her arm, "Courtney what's wrong? Why are you crying?" She let out a sob and I pulled her in and gave her a hug. "Courtney, you are kind of scarring me. What's wrong? What happened?"

"I know," she said shaking her head pulling away from me. I gave her a questioning look. Know what? What did she know? "I know, OK! I know!" She responded to my unspoken question.

"Courtney please, elaborate some more. I have absolutely no idea what you are talking about. What do you know?"

She took in a breath trying to calm herself down,"I know that it is you that Kevin likes, not me. I know that he confronted you about his feeling for you in a very ugentlemann like way, and that you tried to get him to realize that it's me that he likes. But he doesn't want me he wants you."

Out of shock I take a step away from her, "How? How do you know this?"

She sighed, "Simon told me. He thought I should know before I embarrassed myself in first period. I'm so happy he told me."