Teenager

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Isabella's POV
I understand that my parents are trying to treat me like an adult now. I'm not sure why but they've been leaving a lot of decisions up to me, especially since my punishment started, but I just wish they wouldn't have left the decision of whether or not I want my birth mother in my life up to me. My immediate answer was no. But once I thought about it more, I realized that I didn't know the answer. Do I want Rosalie in my life after she blatantly told me that she gave me away for a reason?

"Leaving a hotel in a foreign country without telling anyone where you're going...probably not the smartest idea." Demi said as she sat next to me on the bench facing the Eiffel Tower. It really wasn't. I saw the Taken movies. I doubt my dad would do all of that to get me back.

"I'm sorry...I just wanted to be alone for a little bit and I didn't want to bother you or my dad..." I replied as I tugged at the sleeves of my black Guns and Roses hoodie.

"What's going on?"

"I called Rosalie. I told her who I was. It wasn't even a five minute conversation. All she told me was that she ran away for a reason and she didn't want me back then so she definitely doesn't want me now. Why doesn't my own mother love me? Am I not good enough for her?" Something about Demi is just so comforting. Maybe that's why i felt comfortable enough to scoot into her arms and sob into her expensive designer jacket. Instead of pushing me away, she embraced me in her arms and stroked my hair down as I cried on her.

I will never forget that phone call. I'll never forget how I felt after that phone call. And I'll never forget the people who were there for me afterwards: Demi and my dad. So, I don't know if I want Rosalie in my life. Do I really need her since I have Demi? I don't want to make Demi upset by accepting Rosalie as part of my life, but I don't just want to let Rosalie in and think that her abandoning me was okay since she's here now. I just don't know. And even though Rosalie didn't win the custody case - I mean, obviously - I just wish my parents would make the decision for me. Because I had given Rosalie my phone number and she wouldn't stop texting me trying to hang out. I just don't have time for her right now.

To top it all off, this is the week of my sweet sixteen but my parents still haven't lifted the punishment. We discussed the TV show thing and they said I could go back but the problem is, Melissa, Maddie, and MacKenzie aren't on the show anymore. The producers said that the other moms are mad that I'm allowed to be on the team without having a mom there when the show is called "Dance Moms." This is kind of why I want to let Rosalie into my life. She can be my TV mom and Demi can be my real mom. I just don't want to make Demi upset. She's already been through enough and she's done so much for me. I don't want to offend her.

"Hey Isa," my dad said as he knocked on my door while entering my room.

Since I technically pay rent, can I yell at him for that? I was about to until I saw that he was holding two glass bowls of Ben and Jerry's half baked ice cream. It's our favorite. But we haven't been talking that much since he put me on punishment. I've mostly been talking to Demi.

"Hey," I greeted as he gestured to the edge of my bed, so I nodded and scooted over a little bit before he sat down and passed me a bowl of ice cream.

"So, what's up?" I asked as he made himself comfortable.

"I wanted to talk to you about this whole Rosalie thing."

"What about it?"

"Have you made a decision yet?"

"I don't know...kind of. Rosalie really hurt my feelings when she told me that she left me for a reason. I don't think I'm over it yet. And I don't want to hurt Demi's feelings by letting Rosalie in my life. I don't want her to think that I prefer Rosalie over her or anything because Rosalie isn't my mom. Demi is," I firmly explained as my dad nodded in understanding. "Can you make the decision, please?"