Fix You {A Shoey Fanfiction}

The Letter Chapter 8

-Shane's POV-

I woke up. I was surrounded by flowers and grass. I sat up and I realized that I was here before. I was in the garden from my dream. I pulled a clump of grass out of the ground. I stood up, with the clump of grass in my hand and sighed.

"Shane!?" A woman's voice called from behind me. I dropped the clump of grass I was holding. I turned around. It was Lisa.

"What?" I asked.

"Everyone was looking for you for the past hour! You missed the funeral and everything, you jerk!" I could tell from her voice that she was angry and I could tell from her mascara that she was crying.

"You should've worn waterproof mascara," I mumbled.

"Huh? What?" her tone of voice was quite intimidating.

"You should've worn waterproof mascara," I repeated louder.

She replied with an unimpressed face impression.

"You get it? See, you're at a funeral, which means you're gonna cry so-."

She interrupted," I get it. I just don't think it was necessary," she had a stern look.

"Oh. Sorry. I was just-."

She interrupted me again," Just shut up. Nothing you say can prevent this from being as awkward as it is right now, so just stop please. It's embarrassing."

"Embarrassing? There's no one here but me, you and a fetus," I laughed.

"Once again Shane." Her facial expression didn't change. "You know what? I'm kinda proud of you." She smiled a tiny bit, changing the subject completely.

"What? Why?" Her change of topic confused me.

"I'm proud of you for making this happen," she was starting to scare me.

"What are you on about?!" I backed away.

She inched closer."You killed Joey so we could be happier. It's kinda... I don't know.. adorable! And what I'm trying to say is, I love you and we should get back together."

"What!? No! Lisa, you're pregnant! With Sawyer's baby! And..and.. Lisa, I don't love you anymore... actually I stopped loving you around a year ago. Our relationship was just for the cameras, and you know that! For God's sake we weren't even living with eachother! Whenever I came over to film, we'd have to pretend that I came back from a run and fuck, we both know I don't run!" I blurted out fast, hoping she didn't hear some of it.

She must've heard it because she was just standing there, nodding.

"C'mon Lisa, just accept it," I comforted her from afar.

She just kept nodding.

"It's probably the hormones. Because you're pregnant, with Sawyer's baby!"

She laughed," You're right."She nodded.  "Fucking hormones." She whispered under her breath, but I heard it.

"I need to go," I said, quickly walking past her.

"Shane! Wait!" Lisa called after me as I ran down the hallway from my dream.

I made it to the room I got dressed in and locked the door. I slouched down against the door and sighed. I stared at the tie (I forgot to wear) on my bed.

"This is getting out of hand," I sighed loudly. I put my head in my hands. "Joey, I need you. I need to see your face again. Even if it's just one more time, I'll be happy! I just miss you so much and I can never forgive myself for what I said to you. All you needed was someone to talk to and someone to listen when you were at your worst and for some reason, you chose me and I was ungrateful but God.. if you were alive right now I'd do all those things," I stopped talking and took a deep breath. "I don't understand, I'm thinking about you all the time but for some reason, you're not showing up! What am I doing wrong!?" It felt like my heart was falling apart as I heard a knock on the door. I bolted up from my slumped position.