Wildly in love

(eighteen)

At the hospital, crucial moments arrived. Before he entered the surgery room -we were in the ambulance-, he asked me to say my goodbye words at his funeral, "just in case". But, it was obvious. I know his death is coming, and I can not do anything about it.

***

"Mrs. Rogers?" The same doctor like seven or eight months ago came to us. Disappointment on his face was the first thing I saw. It was obvious. My heart just stopped.

"Please don't tell me..." She said, holding her tears back.

"I'm so sorry, Mrs." He says.

Oh My God.

My world is collapsing.

Everything is wrong.

Why.

Noah. Oh my God.

No.

Please.

"His blood was infected by a bacteria and we tried our best, but it got into his brain... He was struggling to breathe and before the surgery, we asked him to try to write something.. This... This is what he wrote.."

He hands his mum. She looks shocked, and hands me the paper.

Katherine Holls,

Since the day I've met you, everything was special. Our worlds we're coliding and I know that now, my world will be fully yours. I want you to know that, I will die with the thought of you, my girlfriend. I know it's not much, I know you want me to be alive but it is not time. I will be by your side and please, think of me, don't forget me. Remember that you promised you'll say your last words, and, please don't be like in The Fault In Our Stars, saying that you don't believe a world. You have to do this for me, and I will be grateful. I want them to know what we both shared, don't be afraid to tell them, Sunshine, you will feel free.

I love you, Katherine. Take care of yourself.

I started crying. I never thought someone could mean so much to me.

But I'm planning into coming with you, not at your funeral. But also that. I will come to you.