The One - Bradley Simpson Fanfiction

Chapter 12 - Feelings of Change

I sat contemplating Tristan's text for most of the next morning. I had woken up well before seven, so Brad was still asleep. I went for an early morning jog, to help clear my mind. However, as I thought more and more about Tristan and his presence upon my body, I couldn't help but feel a feeling I'd never felt before. I was convinced Brad had been the one, so where had this feeling come from? I had been informed Tristan had liked me for a while, but he'd never advanced on me before. I was confused as to how I had fallen in love with two people at once, as I'd never even been in love before. I knew that if you felt as if you liked two people, then you clearly don't like the first as much as you think, because you then wouldn't like the second, but I honestly liked both. 

With Brad I felt like I could be my true self. He treated me like a princess, now all the lies were out of the way. I felt like I was deceiving him by liking Tris too. I felt a sense of elegance and sophistication with Brad and I liked it. On the other hand, with Tristan, I felt young and free, and felt I didn't have a care in the world. Brad knew how much he hurt me, before I knew the cheating allegations over Parisa weren't true. I just felt like I was cheating Brad and myself by liking Tristan too.

I made my way back to Brad's, showered, did my make-up and hair, changed my outfit and went downstairs. 

"Only a week until we find who has got the deal, hey?" Brad said.

I turned to him and smiled.

"I hope this doesn't ruin things between us, Jenny. We're finally back on track and I don't want to ruin anything."

"I feel the same way," I said, holding my breath, the thought of Tristan in the back of my mind. 

Getting so close to both made it harder to decide who I really loved. 

"You look beautiful today, babe," he said, placing his bowl by the sink and wrapping his arms around my waist. 

Everyone was out so we were home alone. 

I smiled again, not feeling the fluttery feeling in my stomach, just like I had used to feel with Brad. I didn't move to try and kiss him, causing Brad to notice that something was on my mind.

"Hey, what's wrong? Is this the same thing as last night?"

"I'm fine," I said, only to burst straight into a river of tears. 

"No, you're not fine, Jenny!"

"I just... I don't know what I want anymore, Brad."

"Hey, hush. Look, clearly there's something you don't want to tell me so how about you and the girls go away for a bit. Maybe on a spa weekend, clear you mind?"

I smiled and nodded, placing my head on his shoulder. 

I had had my chance to tell Brad what was on my mind, although I knew it'd crush his heart. A weekend with the girls would be nice, but I really just wanted to see Tristan. Just reading his text, thinking of all the times we were together and thinking of him made me feel something inside, something I'd never felt before.

By Friday night I'd packed a small suitcase and Charl came to pick us up in the car. We all headed to a spa in the countryside for the weekend, for a make over, massage and swim. It sounded so perfect, but I knew I'd still have Tris on my mind.

I was still to text him back, yet I had nothing to say.

Saturday night arrived and Parisa and Charl had gone for a swim. Leigh and I were sharing a room so we stayed to have a chat. 

"What's up?" she said, noticing how quiet I'd been. 

I'd been so close with Leigh for years and I guess I was able to tell her my situation.