Following You 'Til The End

ⓒⓗⓐⓟⓣⓔⓡ◎ⓝⓘⓝⓔ: ⓖⓡⓞⓦⓘⓝⓖ ⓟⓐⓘⓝⓢ

Time passed and my tears dried
I got used to my days without you
Then I ran into you, I naturally smiled
Am I slowly becoming an adult now?
-MJ, Eunwoo, Sanha-
ASTRO
(Growing Pains: Summer Vibes- Second Mini Album)

"Medyo malayo yung clinic dito sa mga practice rooms." Sabi ni Jungkook sakin. 'Di ako umiimik at tumingin lang sa likod niya. "Jeon Juliane." Tawag niya sakin. He sighed when I didn't answered him.

"Marunong ka pala sumayaw?" Tanong niya. We were silent for a while hanggang sa tumango ako.

"Oo." Sagot ko sa kanya.

"Since when?"

"When you left." Sagot ko sa kanya. I felt his body flinched at my answer. Hanggang ngayon...parang hindi parin niya nakakalimutan yung ginawa niya sakin.

"You're still on Glee Club?" Tanong niya.

"Oo." Sagot ko naman. Parte si Jungkook sa club na sinasalihan ko ngayon. Alam kasi ni Jungkook na marunong akong kumanta dahil...siya yung nagturo sa akin, eh.

"Kamusta sina Mama at Papa?" Tanong niya ulit. To be honest, I don't wanna talk about my parents pero...there's a feeling inside me that wants to have a conversation with Jungkook. Just this moment, I'll be able to talk to him as my brother.

Pero...hindi parin ako sumasagot sa kanya.

"I see that you still don't wanna talk about Mom and Dad." He told me.

"Their business trip was extended to a month due to some problems of the State's branch company. Kaya ayun." Sagot ko sa kanya.

"Are you alone?" Jungkook asked.

"Jongdae's with me."

"Jongdae? Your childhood bestfriend?" He asked.

"Yeah, Kim Jongdae. The one who acted as my brother since that so-called brother that I should call as my own left me because of our parents' shitty bribe." I answered him, venom dripping in every word that came out of my mouth. Ang sakit parin. Ang sakit talaga. That pain when your loved one just left you because he or she can't sacrifice the thing that he or she wanted rather than the respect that was supposed to last a lifetime hurted like shit!

"Yee-"

"Jeon Jungkook...have you ever....have you ever regretted on leaving your sister for a bribe?" Tanong ko sa kanya. Isa nalang....iiyak na talaga ako. Isa nalang...at baka sakali...mawawala na talaga yung pagmamahal ko sa kanya because after all this time that he left me...minahal ko parin yung kapatid ko.

Hanggang sa...narinig ko yung sagot niya.

"Hindi....I never regretted on leaving you for a bribe." Sagot niya with a monotone voice. My whole world stopped and I heard my heart breaking bit by bit, little by little. Why...?

Why do I still love my brother after he answered that question that tortured me....that tortured my heart?

Ganito talaga yung pagmamahal. Kahit sinasaktan kana, kahit ayaw na ng tao sayo, minahal mo parin siya ng lubos. Dahil yung pagmamahal mo, gaano ka sakit, tinitiis mo parin. Nagpakatanga ka parin. Kahit gaano....naging tanga naman ako pagdating sa pagmamahal. Ganoon kasi ako magmahal, eh. Sa punto na hindi mo na alam na nababaliw kana pala.