Oh Honey ✔

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There's some things that are hard to admit.
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I don't talk to Michael because i like him.
I only like his hair. I only like the way he speaks when hes smiling. I only like his eyes when the sun shines on them. I only like his smile when someone says something stupid. I only like his pale skin. I only like the way his hand grabs mine and then let's go like nothing ever happened.

But i dont like him.

I dont like his personality. Hes rude. He gets mad over the dumbest things. He assumes things about people. Hes quick to judge someone like we all judge book covers. He blames others for his own mistakes. Hes very self centered. Hes selfish. He likes to make people feel bad. He likes when people ask him for forgiveness. He likes to make people feel insecure so then he can go and tell them that they're fine the way they are. He likes to make people cry and then he goes on saying he didn't mean to hurt them. Hes stubborn just like I am, we roll our eyes at each other and dont speak for days. But I come running back to him anyway.

Why do I talk to him.
Why.
Why do I let him get away with it.

I dont really know. But,
I kinda just want to fuck with his mind and make him believe I'm falling for his trap. I want to make him fall into my trap.

I'll let my eyes meet his, and look away quickly. I'll blush when he's around. I'll say dumb things. I'll cry when he says hes mad at me. I'll say im sorry even though I'm not sorry for being kinda rude to him.

I'll make it seem like I'm so invested in this relationship.

When I'm not.

I'm not stupid.

I'm not gonna fall for some idiot.

I gave him a second chance. But not so he could prove he was a better person now. No. Hes not a better person. Hes worse. Hes learned from his mistakes. But so have I. Ive learned.

Ive learned that revenge is

so

So sweet.