Oh Honey ✔

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*Trigger warning*

What happened?
What happened to not lying?
What happened to always telling the truth?
You're insane.
You're crazy.
You're not okay.
Look at what you did.
You're ruining your life.
You ruined your life.
You ruined the life of others.
This went too far.
And now the guilt keeps stinging like hand sanitizer on an open wound.
You know whar the worst thing is?
That although you feel guilt,
You're still doing it.
You're still going along with it even though it's killing you on the inside.
and you believe your own lies too,
What the actual heck is wrong with you?
I hate you so fucking much.
Just go die.
Kill yourself.
Stop lying.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
But you can't.
I hate it.
I hate you.
Everyone will hate you.
Your family.
Your friends.
Everyone.

No one is going to forgive you.
No one will forgive you for this.
Just kill yourself.
No one will even like you anymore anyway so what's the point on living.
The people you most love will hate you amd will never trust you again.
They'll all hate you so much.
No one will say it's okay.
Because it's not okay.
It'll never be okay.
No one will be there for you because you're a fucking liar.
You lie about everything.
You come up with lies.
Most times you don't though.
You just blurt them out and you don't realize it until you said or sometimes you don't realize it till hours or even days later and you're like FUCK
but you can't say it was a lie.
People will hate you for that.
So you just keep going.
And.
Fucking god.
Kill yourself before anyone finds out.
Kill yourself when you're in the highway.
Jump out that car.
Let a car run over you or something.
Overdose.
Cut too deep.
Hang yourself.
Fall off the stairs.
Hit your head will a brick or something.
I hate you.
I FUCKING HATE YOU.
DIE.
ROT IN HELL.
DEEP INSIDE YOU KNOW HELL IS REAL.
STOP DENYING IT.
JUST DIE.
YOU DESERVE PAIN.
YOU DESERVE TO BE TORTURED.
JUST.
FUCKING.

DIE.

Kill yourself sweetie,
No one is watching,
Only God,
And I'm sure he wants you dead too anyway.