Stalking Is A Passion // Jaiden Animations

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It me, author. Im trying to experiment so i hope i didnt disappoint you.

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I hissed in pain while i drag the sharp razor down across my leg for the fifteenth time. I dropped the blade on the bathroom floor resting my head against the wall sighing in content.

Its been two days since I mutilated my skin and its so foreign to me to see my skin not painted in crimson red.

I looked at my naked body covered in red, "what a fucking waste" I said aloud. I silently walked to the shower head and take a shower.

For a few minutes, i just watch the blood dripping down the drain from my legs then started cleaning myself. Watching the blood sliding down my leg mixing with water amazes me for some reason.

I walked out of the bathroom with a towel around my body and a bandage wrapped on both my legs and put some clothes on.

Today is the day I'll be talking to Jax and try to get his trust even though we started on each other's bad side. He thinks Im a psycho now since I asked him about Jaiden and getting caught watching him.

But I promise that he wont be looking at me like that anymore after what Im planning to do today.

«later»

I tucked the loose hair to my ear and played with my fingers in a nervous manner trying to distract myself from the nervousness creeping on me.

Im sitting at a coffee shop that Jax goes to after school everyday and Im sitting on his spot so Im hoping for an actual full conversation with him. I bought myself a cup of coffee just to try to lower down the stalker vibe that Im giving off and look a bit friendly. I must say that i look so different like the day I first confronted him so I guess its a plus.

After a few minutes, a bell sound was heard and I looked at the person entering. It was Jax.

He looked at me and he looked surprised but concealed it by walking up to the counter to order. I try to look not interested at him and bring out my diary and started doodling at the back page.

After a few minutes, a guy approached me and I looked up at his eyes. He looks irritated and my nerves started to control my hands, now its shaking.

"What are you doing here? You stalker" Jax said disgust laced in his words.

I try to sound and look innocent, "I-Im just drinking coffee" I stuttered, my hands found its way to the cup of coffee and shakily take a sip on it.

"I know you're stalking me and I know for damn sure that you're not here just to get a cup of coffee" he said sternly, i watched his hold in his cup tighten.

"I know you think Im a stalker but Im not. I go to this school a few blocks away and my apartment happen to make me cross your school every other day" I said, my voice soft. I hope he buys my lies.

I imagined Jaiden in front of me and i started blushing, "Also... I... happen to...have-a-crush-on-you-and-seeing-you-makes-me-happy" I said and looked down at the table playing with my fingers.

It was silent for a little bit and I was scared of what his reaction is going to be.

Instead of another comeback, I heard the dragging of a chair and hands on the table holding his own coffee, I looked up and Jax was sitting in front of me.

I was surprised and I think he knew it as well by the look of my face making him smile a bit.

"That makes sense, I heard MCU is a great university" he said and took a sip from his cup, his brown eyes not leaving my green ogre looking ones.

My cheeks flushed again, I gripped my coffee tighter, "Yeah, it is" I said and smiled.

Jax smiled, "Look, Im sorry for talking to you like that. I just... I always see you walking in the crowd and looking at me and I guess it weirded me out cause no one does that to me" he explained and his eyes is telling me the truth of how sorry he is to me and I smiled at him.

"Yeah, I'm sorry too for looking like a weirdo" I said in a joking manner and he laughed so i joined him.

My plan worked perfectly.

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Dec. 23

It's been a month since I've wrote in this diary and to update, I have my own apartment now. Theres not much room since its a cheap place. I also bought myself a lot of clothes from the thrift shop just to impress Jax today.

My plan to gain Jax's trust worked perfectly and I actually didnt expect him to believe my lies. I even told him that my name is "Evelyn".

What a gross name I came up with, ugh!!