Stalking Is A Passion // Jaiden Animations

vii.

Is this book making yall uncomfortable?

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Dec. 24

Yesterday was a really exhausting day that I really REALLY wanted to kill myself. Jax and I spent our time talking and walking in this park near the coffee shop and it was so unbearable that I dont want to talk to him again today.

But we talked about meeting each other today again to spend Christmas Eve. I must say, he falls too easily with my lies I thought he's hard to get but I guess not.

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I smiled at my diary entry and put back the pen in my pen holder and took a hot shower, I'll update my diary later after everything that unfolds later.

I have 2 hours to get ready for our supposedly 'date'. I hate spending time with him, he's too chatty, sounds like he's choking on his braces, and he looks like he have heart shaped emoji on his eyes all the fucking time.

The only thing keeping me sane around him is the fact that he's related to Jaiden, knows about her address and he is the only way for me to actually talk to her in person.

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"So my friends told me to stay away from you earlier" Jax said out of the blue while we're walking to the park we spent our day together yesterday.

I immediately faced him, my heart started beating faster and a lump formed in my throat, "W-what did you say?" I asked my voice cracking.

He smiled at the ground and faced me, looking me in the eyes, "I told them to fuck off" he chuckled a bit and broke eye contact and look down the concrete again "I know we just officially met yesterday and we got to know each other that day, but in all honesty... I felt something"

"Oh... what do you feel?" I asked curiously. Im actually curious for once.

"Spark," he said, "Yesterday was like the best day of my life. You were amazing, the girl with humor that I relate to, and you look beautiful. So beautiful" he completed.

We finally reached a bench no one is sitting on and I was the first one to sit, shocked on what he just said about me. He thinks Im beautiful? Amazing? A girl with humor? The fuck is he on, crack?

I almost chuckled at his statement but I forced myself to not do that, I just act reserved placing my clasped hands on my lap, "I-I felt it too..." I said, "This sounds kinda weird..."

I paused, "well, really weird actually... when i passed your school the first time, I saw you through the crowd. You're the first person i saw, you stood out from the rest, there is something about you that really drove me into you" i said and blushed still looking at my lap.

I felt him guide my face to look at him in the eyes and said, "You dont have to be embarrassed Evelyn, we share mutual feelings so getting embarrassed is not an option" Jax smiled showing off his teeth in braces. Gross.

I smiled back at him and lean back on my seat, "About your friends that told me to stay away from you, who are they?" I asked with a smirk. These friends of his will be no more when I see their faces. I'll rip their eyes out and pop them like a fucking pimple.

"They're Tony and James," He said and scooted closer to me that our thighs are touching each other.

"Do you have a picture of them?" I asked, "I'm really curious"

Jax agreed and pulled out his phone, he searched in his gallery for a bit and finally showed a picture of 2 guys with their arms on each other's shoulders shirtless and seems to be having fun.

They wont be having fun much longer, I thought to myself and smirked to myself.

I laughed at the picture,"They look like theyre having a lot of fun, will i get a chance to meet them?" I asked cocking my head at the side.

"Yeah sure, but not today or tomorrow because we're busy with family christmas you know" Jax said and shrugged, "My parents told me not to invite others, we're going to spend Christmas with each other"

"Oh its fine, Im fine spending the christmas alone" I replied with honesty, he looked at me with sympathetic eyes and smiled.

"Sorry if i didnt get to invite you to come spend the day tomorrow," he said, sincerity is evident in his voice.

I just smiled at him and rested my head on his slim shoulder, its uncomfortable but i want him to think that I'm comfortable around him.

«at home»

I started sketching Jax's friends in my diary with anger. They have no fucking rights to be interfering with our relationship. Jax is the only way for me to get to Jaiden and they are not FUCKING helping.

I stopped my hands from sketching their faces, the paper almost ripped from how hard I was sketching and my hand is holding the pencil tightly until it finally snapped.

"They won't be living for long" I smirked and clawed my injured leg, I felt the cuts on my leg reopening.

I sighed and grab a pen and continued the entry I did this morning.

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Jax told me that he will be introducing me to his friends Tony and James and Im so excited to fucking rip their throats out and shove it on each other's throats. I'll fucking skin them alive and watch each other bleed to death. I'll cut their earlobes and stitch it on a fucking teddy bear and sold it on black market. I'll remove their nails, one by one and hammer their fingers till they scream to stop.

But I wont stop. They deserved everything I will give them after I snatched them. They deserved to be tortured for telling Jax to stay away from me.