Gamer girl (true story)

Chapter 6: I tried....

Yes. I tried to kill myself. I tried to even when she loved me.
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Things in my life are going down hill, with her telling me she loved me after what Keegan did to her... he cheated on her. I loved her so much I was angry at myself. I grabbed my nail file kit and slit my wrist with it, making 40 small incisions deep in my skin. After I was done, I put ointment on it and bandaged it wearing a coat in the 80 degree weather.
I got looks from every direction. I was wearing shorts so it was obvious what I had done. I was called into Swanson's office. "So.... Brittany... tell me what happened... what did you do?" All these questions I answered her with the truth how I was angry at myself and that I blamed myself for what happens to her.
I don't want her mother to hurt her if she ever found out about us. I love her. I don't want to loose her. Sometimes I wish boys like Luis and Keegan could just go find happiness in beer and alcohol; and get the fuck outta my life. But they don't. They stick around trying to keep the girl I love from me.
Keeping us separated for years and years. Why does God have to hate me? Is it because I'm gay? I deserve a good love story! I deserve happiness! I deserve a good woman who loves me!
I have the woman, and semi happiness even though I have depression. But a good love story? It's a sad love story due to the distance we have. Why do we have to live hundreds of miles away?
At some point after I graduate I will be moving to the state she's in and getting a job as a graphics designer. It won't be until up to a year after I graduate due to my programs next year program. Why can't I get the happiness I want? Why can't I marry her already you may ask?
Because she's a little younger than me and her mom doesn't like gays. But I don't care I love her anyways because she's my baby girl, the love of my life. Forever I shall love her.
Forever.
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Hey guys! Thanks so so much for reading this! The next chapter will be all about SMAC (Stillwater Makes A Change week) special shout out to that organization for making a great week of fun for a good cause! I love you and congrats on raising $170,000! LOVE YOU BYE!!!