Because You Loved Me-A Kaira FF

Ok..Now I am officially Dead

      That man is meeting me after a period of 3 months, 90 days or more to be exact and the first thing he thought of saying to me was "Long time no see". No shit, Sherlock!! Ofcourse it's been a long time since I last saw you. Couldn't he atleast bother with a hi, a hello or ask how I was doing?? Guess he has changed that much within such a short span. I didn't bother answering him and stared at the walls, the floor, the ceiling of the elevator and counting all the buttons there i.e I was staring at anything and everything that came in my field of vision except that person in the elevator. What else could you imagine me doing?? Going all" Oh my Kartik!! How i missed you..it's been so long..blah..blah.." Actually if I wasn't in my right mind i would have been doing all that right now because come on, this man standing ,right here was a part & parcel of my life for so long and suddenly when he disappears like that, it doesn't mean my love also won't disappear in a snap. Coming back to the scenario in the elevator,as I told you earlier I  was staring simply and I could feel his hot gaze on me. Then again he spoke up" Naira?? Are you still there?? Why aren't you saying anything??" I again stayed quiet and I knew I was dragging him to the limits, just staying oblivious like that but I chose to stick to it. As I stood there in my oblivious state, suddenly he was there, standing right in front of me and I couldn't breathe. I just stood awestruck as I could see his lips forming some words..I guess I had blacked out and I could hear him asking something" Naira,can't you see me standing here??" . Naira, Naira,Naira everytime time he calls me by my name it does something to my heart , making it do 1000 somersault inside. That's just how it was I guess.
       So i finally decided to break my silence and speak to him. "Yes i could see you standing,It's not that I am blind and can't notice you standing in all your 6ft of gloriness. I just didn't want to talk to you or respond to you. I just didn't feel like it. Like you said, it's been a long time and yes by the looks of it you are doing very fine and I am fine too as you can very well see. Kudos to you for even having the guts to come talk to me after all that you did. It must be you who should be ashamed and not me. You left me and that's fine with me. No point in staying together if love doesn't exist between us anymore. You have moved on and I am also working towards it and so that's it. End of converstaion!!" Phewww!!! That was a long speech and i had brought out all in one breath. I mentally gave myself a pat in the back for standing strong and not crumbling to a emotional wreck in the middle of my conversation. I thanked the heavens that atlast my floor had arrived and as I stepped out, Kartik just pulled me back into the elevator and pressed 90. That was the terrace for God's sake. What business did he have up there??Before i could stop him and get out, the elevator had already started moving up. I couldn't get out of his grip,it was like a iron hold. As he saw me struggling wordlessly , he let go of my hand. " I don't wanna argue with you. So do you care to explain??" I asked him. And then he started. " First of all sorry if that hurt you" indicating the mark that was forming on my wrist due to his strong grip. " I had no other choice because you had stated your opinion and i need a chance to voice my mind too. " As he kept saying these, he started moving closer and i started moving away and there was only a little distance I could move inside that small elevator because suddenly my back hit the metal wall of the elevator. Okk!! Bye bye Naira,see you in heaven. Why do you ask?? Because such close proximity between us is never good and it always ends up in us doing things that I think would be weird now since we are seperated. You get what I mean?? "Before i get to what i actually want to say, did you actually say you have moved on from me. Are you sure about that?? Because the rhythm of your breathing is telling a very different story." He was right. My rate of breathing was like i had run for a 100 miles without a stop. He could only notice my breathing but not my stupid heart which was beating 200miles/hr speed. His closeness to me was doing all these things and I couldn't say it out all loud,could I?? I just spoke in a weak voice " please stay away from me". I guess my voice was also away on a vaction to Hawaii because each and every part of my body was failing me right now and that's all thanks to him. In no time I know I would be straight in his arms and crying my heart out. Because that's what i had wanted all this time. To be in his embrace, surrounded by his warmth , his steady heartbeat calming me down, that was what i had always wanted. I knew it was high time and tried to move out of his grasp and stay away from him. That is the exact movement,
ladies and gentleman, the power decided to go out. Great going!! I guess the fates were working extra hard to make my life a living hell today. It was dark and for us struck inside the elevator it was a worst nightmare.
        I should hav had some brains because getting out of his grasp in a lit room was so difficult and now getting out in a dark place should be more difficult . That is known fact and i must have been careful. But as you see, due to the  ongoing circumstance, i think my brain was hibernating and as a result when i tried to move away, something tripped my leg and there Boom!! I was in his arms. He was holding me too tightly , very tight as a matter of fact because it was difficult for me to breathe in this already suffocating elevator. He was holding me as if he didn't ever wanna let go. It was as if we were back to how our lives were earlier, me in his arms and his chin upon my head and my safe haven was complete. I just shut off all these thoughts away from my brain because it was all my head playing games with me as all of this will never be true. He has moved on and things are not going to be the same again. I tried to resist, I tried to not be affected and tried to remain in my Sherni avatar. But all the things that had happened in the past months came rushing back to me as if  a storm and I couldn't hold back anymore. I just snuggled closer to him, my safest place on earth and as if on cue he just tightened his arms around me. That must just be my hallucination. The lift was giving out those automated mesages as to not panic and stay calm and help will arrive quickly. I never paid any attention to all of those words because I was already being calmed by his steady heartbeat. Inspite of the alarm sounds blaring all around me , I could only hear his heart. My eyes that were already welling decided to break the dam  open and tears were rushing out at record speed. I tried to my remain quiet but I could hear my slight sniffling and i guess he heard it too because i felt him stiffen in his position. I could imagine his thoughts,how he must be feeling to hold a crying, emotionally unstable woman who was no more a part of his life. I took that as my cue and tried to move out of the hug but he took me by shock when he pulled me even more closer and nuzzled his head in my hair.I heard him whispering" I am soo so sorry, baby"but that must be some stupid illusion of mine. I felt him inhaling my scent and I stood there still not knowing what to do. I could feel his shirt becoming wet from the tears that i  had shed yet he didn't move away and i wanted to ask him what he felt sorry for but just then the lights came out and immediately he let go of me and walked back. The elevator doors opened and there were worried  expressions all on of his staff's face. He walked out and at once all of his staff surrounded him, ushering around and worried whether their boss was alright. The first one up in line was none other Tanya who was all but slithering next to him and was just faking soo much concern for him. I could see him reassuring everyone that he was alright and then Tanya hugged him. The entire scene played out in front of me as i stood their inside the elevator,my body refusing to move. He too hugged her back and i could see his eyes searching for something or someone to be specific. Then his eyes landed on me and then i saw a look in his eyes that I couldn't decipher. Our eyelock was broken by the worried voice of my receptionist, who came there running,calling out my name. When she saw me  inside the elevator, she came rushing to me and hugged me tight and asked if i was alright. Before the lift could close once again we both went out and by that time Kartik's group was also leaving. That Tanya was still clung to him and he went away not even   looking back at me once, as if a few minutes back he wasn't holding onto me so tight and whispering sorry to me. What the hell had just happened???

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