I'll Never Let You Go (romanogers fanfic)

Chapter 11

Steve's POV

I climbed out of Sharon's car, man that had been an awkward journey! Bucky was already there when we got to the cemetery. I walked towards the gate with them, "Where's Natasha?" Bucky asked. "She's asleep, I'm kinda worried though, she's been out all morning." I said, walking to were Peggy's grave lay. "I'm sure she's fine, mabye she had trouble sleeping last night" Bucky said thoughtfully.

We all lay our flowers down and said a couple of words. Bucky started with, "I didn't know you as well as I would've liked to, but it seemed that you were there for Steve when I wasn't. I'll be forever in your debt knowing that." I never knew the felt like that. Then Sharon started, "You were the best aunt ever! I miss you Peggy. I miss all the laughs we had when I was a little girl! I miss all the stories about the second world war and Captain Rogers, the only man you ever truly loved. Thank you, I love you always." Tears started to roll down our faces, even Bucky's. Then it was my turn, I shuddered. "Hey Peggy, I don't really know where I should start but here I go. I miss you, everyday I do. Thank you for being who you are. Thank you for everything.....You know I still don't know how to dance, mabye when I die you'll teach me. It's been hard living life without you, but I've pushed on because I don't want to let you down. I hope you're happy up in heaven, mabye you've met my friend Thor! haha well that was a joke! But I'm doing great, if you were wondering and that's because of Natasha Romanoff. She's wonderful by the way I think you would really like her! But know that I'll always love you! I hope you don't mind me being with Natasha. And don't worry I'll keep Sharon out of trouble! I mean we aren't real close but it's the least I could, after all you've done for me..I love you, don't you ever forget that, not even for one second, okay? I love you."

We all stood there in silence, then I spoke again. "I'm so sorry Peggy. I should've been there, but I wasn't. I'm sorry!" I started to cry even harder. Bucky moved to my side, "It's ok Steve, there's nothing to say sorry about. From what I've heard you saved million of lives." Bucky patted me on the back. I could feel his cold metal arm, then I looked at him. "I might've saved lives, but I let you fall. I did this to you!" I pointed to his metal arm. "No Steve, you didn't. remember that I agreed to be apart of the group. And look I'm back to normal, so beat yourself up. It's not worth it!" Bucky said, "Thanks man" I said forcing a smile, he gave me a small  one back.

I turned to Sharon who had been quiet this whole time. "Are you alright?" I sighed, "Yeah...can we go back now? I'm starting to feel even worse" she said, playing with her coat buttons. "Yeah ok then..let's go!"

We walked back to the car, Bucky said that he didn't live to far away and would walk. So we said our goodbyes and Sharon drove off.  

I opened my door and step inside. Natasha was still asleep, mabye she was ill! I didn't want to wake her so I left the room. I sat down of the sofa, ny head in my hands. I felt so responsible for everything, I mean I know I wasn't but still. Then my phone started ringing, it was Clint.

On the phone with Clint:

Steve: Hello!

Clint: Hey man, are you ok? I heard the news. We all did!

Steve: Yeah I'm fine...wait who told you?

Clint: Sharon, she just sent out the text!

Steve: Well thanks for your concern!

Clint: That's fine. I mean we all know how much you loved her!

Steve: Yeah....I miss her so much!

*Steve sighs*

Clint: You'll be alright, you always are. Well I'm really busy right now so I'll talk to you later. Bye!

Steve: Yeah ok. Bye!

*hangs up*

Natasha's POV

I woke up in my bed, how long had I been asleep? I fumbled for my phone and check the time. It was 3:45 pm. I sat up rubbing my face with my hands, shit! Steve! The cemetery! I jumped out of bed and walked into the living room. I saw Steve sitting there, head in his hands. I moved silently to his side and put my arm around his shoulder. He turned to look at me, "Hey beautiful!" he said, his tear stained face lighting up slightly. "Hey!" I said faintly, "How was it?" I asked my voice shaking a bit. "Yeah...it was umm...fine" Steve lied, I didn't fall for it. "Why are you such a bad liar?" I joked, trying to lighten the mood a bit. "I don't know...why are you so beautiful?" Steve said, brushing the hair from my face. I stared into his eyes, the only emotion fear. "What are you so afraid of?" I asked so softly I could hardly hear myself. "I've lost Peggy and I don't, I CAN'T lose you too! But what if I do? Then what...how do I function? It's impossible. I love you to much!" All I did was stare, did he really feel like this? But the real question was did I feel like that? Tears rolled down his face and his lips trembled. I gently hugged him and whispered in his ear, "Well what if I lose you....how do I function?" Steve looked at me, "You never have to lose me if I don't have to lose you" he said softly. "Well then I Think we're set!" I said quietly, kissing his soft lips.