Speakerphone.

8.

Diana's POV:

2 weeks. 2 weeks since I last spoke and saw Danny.

I really did like him and still do.

I just can afford to let someone in my life. I know what happens, you get hurt.

I've actually been talking to charley, he was coming over today, he really wanted to know me. So today is the day I tell him everything.

We already consider each other best friends, and he's like a brother to me. Even though we might've just met, we clicked.

I heard a knock on the door and I knew that was Charley.

I opened it to a smiling charley. he gave me a hug and we sat on the couch starring at my tv.

"So how's it going?" he asked breaking the silence.

"Fine, I guess. you?"

"Good yeah, we've been getting loads of. Studio time so we should be uploading some more YouTube covers"

"Awesome,I'm excited , I can't wait to hear them"

"Thanks yeah. but let's get talking shall we. I want to know every detail, and why you won't continue to see Dan, ya know he thinks you're mad at him"

"I feel terrible, I know, but I'm not mad. I just, I don't know okay."

We stayed silent for a bit.

"Okay so, I don't even know where to start" I chuckled. He nodded, giving me a reassuring smile.

"Well okay. I don't know I guess, whenever someone tries to make their way into my life I just end up pushing them out.

I really like Danny, and you know that Charley. it's just I'm scared. I've had two past relationships and thy were the wort thing every. I was abused, mentally, physically and sexually. yeah at first they were sweet guys and they turned into monsters. It's really scary, I don't know if it's that, that's stopping me to actually go on further with Danny. I had fun the first couple days with him, I like talking to him, but I know, I'll end up getting hurt like always. then who do I go to charley? I have no one. I don't have loving parents or siblings, friends? No I don't.

And

I feel like Danny and I have a lot in common but we're different. He likes to drink and be around people, he's so silly and sweet and such a great guy. Me? I'm. Nothing. I'm boring Diana who likes to stay inside and read and watch Netflix all day by herself, I'm not social and I don't like to drink, I'm just Diana, that girl who is a burden to her family for cutting and being depressed, who tried to kill herself and nobody cared. that's who I am charley, do you really think someone would want to be with me? no.

I'm better now of corse but I'm not letting my guard down, it just safer for me not to talk to Danny anymore, he'll find a girl, one who likes to go out and socialize and drink and have fun in clubs.

I know it's stupid for me to feel this way after knowing him for 2 weeks. Im trying to convince myself I don't want him, and it hurts like hell, because i haven't felt this way but it's for the best.

I don't know maybe I just need help."

Charley's POV:

I sat there starring at Diana. how can someone that age go trough so much and she's so strong. But she thinks she can't be loved? she's wrong I'm in love with her, of corse as a sister loving way.

She told me everything. things she's never told anyone and it was tough for her but I know I'll always be here for here and I hope she knows that too. I can now understand why she pushes everyone away, I have to try my best now to stay in her life because I'm not going anywhere.

She let out a sigh and wiped her tears out of her face.

"It's a lot I know but you asked for it" she chuckled.

"I'm here for you, I love you know that right?" she nodded "I understand now and nobody should go through what you went through. you're so strong Diana, and look at you now, you have a great job, and great flat, and a great very handsome best friend may I add." We laughed

"Thank you charley for everything really"

"No problem, I'll always be here no matter how hard you push me I won't budge. now c'mere and give me a hug."

She crawled over from the other side of the couch and hugged me.

"Okay enough being all sappy, I have to go to bed because I have class tomorrow" she said moving off. Chuckling.

"Alright give me one more hug before I leave." We walked to the door and we hugged. I hugged her tight. "I love you Diana, and please talk to Danny about this okay?"

"I love you too, and alright maybe"

"No you will, bye"

"Bye"

And I left back to my flat, with the other boys and I can't tell Danny where've I been, he'd probably flip.

Diana POV:

After charley left I showered. and cleaned up a bit.

After I showered without really thinking I picked up my phone and texted danny.

'Hey Danny, uh I know we haven't talked much and I'm not mad at you, but maybe we can talk, you can come over Friday night? well I'll talk to you soon. bye.'

I sent

And to be honest I don't know if I can tell him everything I told Charley, but I know I have too.