Bona Fide Queen

Ten

My hand moves around and roams the soft planes of the bed. I meant to find a pillow but instead my hand touched a velvety soft surface.

Wanting to explore, my fingertips run gently and slowly in circles along the smooth surface. It was oddly satisfying. It was soft and warm, and as my fingers continued to graze the surface, I could feel movement.

Movement?

My hand freezes and slowly but surely, my puffy eyes crack open only to see Adrian sprawled next to me.

Immediately my eyes open wide an my jaw drops.

"Oh. My. God." I barely breathe out. As inaudible as I thought I was, a beautiful golden gaze stirred and settled in mine. This is the second time I wake up like this. I hoped this didn't turn into a routine.....that may have been a lie.

"Can't keep your hands off me, eh?" He lazily smiles at me.

I can't help the blush the burns my face and blurs my eyes.

"No! No, I was just, I was-" I stumble for words to explain my embarrassing predicament.

His brow raised in amusement.

"Was just doing what?"

My jaw clenched shut. It was obvious he was going to make this impossible for me.

"Forget it. I wasn't doing anything. I was just- wait a second," it dawns on me then. Last night. Adrian. Wolf. Nicoli.

"Fudge sticks, you've got to be fudging kidding me."

Seeming to sense the sudden change in mood, Adrian sits up, and so do I. My hands are at my head trying to rub away an oncoming headache.

Adrian traces comforting patterns along my back, and I can't find myself to make him stop.

"Hey, hey, Vee, just calm down," He gulps, becoming more serious.

"I guess it's time to talk?" He suggests gently.

I only manage I slight nod.

His long sigh just about sums up how I feel right now.  Not to mention, I still haven't really heard any news on my brother, and I'm still worried about him. Gosh, could anything get any messier?

It's a long silence before Adrian shifts, turning to face m more. It's around this time I notice that he's only in boxers and I'm only in an oversize t-shirt that must be his.

The implied intimacy in the statement alone made me blush a bit more and tilt my head down, hoping my hair can provide some sort of cover.

"About everything. It's a mess right now, I know." He starts off, one hand moving to caress the side of my face, causing my gaze to jump to his.

"That's an understatement," I snort.

He offers a sideways smile at that.

"Yeah, I guess it is," he runs a hand through his beautiful and thick night dark hair that I am tempted to run my very own hands through, even under the circumstances.

"It's not going to be easy. Finding the answers we want. Especially with whatever it is that's going on inside you, I'll admit, it's nothing I've ever heard of." His gaze softens in mine, and I can't help but melt a little.

"Adrian, I'm scared. I'm really scared," my breath hitches and his thumb traces over my lips gently.

"I know, Vee, I know," he says, and I believe him. After all I learned about mates and werewolves, I found it easier, somehow, to understand.

The nickname my brother calls me by sounded strange from his lips. In a good, but strange way.

I shake my head furiously.

"No, Adrian I don't think you understand. I-I think I'm dangerous. Really dangerous," I begin.

Adrian's head tilted.

"Violet, what's wrong? Why-how are you dangerous? What do you mean?" His voice was urgent and pleading with me.

His eyes were urgent, as if he truly wanted to understand me. My heart restricted slightly, and an incoming head ache was beginning to form.

"The dreams, Adrian, in it, I was warned. It said of I didn't control my emotions, bad things could happen." Air was beginning to become scarce in my lungs, my breath becoming shallow.

I curled my hands, somehow thinking my gripping onto something would leash the wild flow of emotions cascading though me.

"Ok, ok, Violet, calm down, do you need anything? Can I do something for you?" Adrian's voice was filled with fear. I could, feel it.

I could tell it was not my emotion I felt, but Adrian's. A small chill and a heated panic danced along my senses, which I could tell were coming from Adrian. This must be my end of the mate bond kicking in.

Too bad it wasn't helping me right now.

Adrian pulled me from my frantic position and pulled me close to him, which calmed me, drained me.

Panicking wasn't going to help. Adrian was right, I needed to calm down. If I'm a danger, it's only fair to let him know.

If only things could be more....normal. maybe things would have been easier? I doubt that, my life has never truly been about getting any easy options.

It takes a few moments of just being held before either of us can just breathe in the silence. I'll admit, this is the first time hugging has ever helped me.

Gulping, I pull away to look at Adrian's face.

"About finding answers. When can we start?" I question.

Adrian looks at me with concern filled eyes.

"I guess the sooner the better, but maybe you should take some time to relax?"

Pffft, fat chance of that happening anytime soon.

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Sorry it's been forever. Finally an update!

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