I walked down the streets of Seoul. My feet dragged me towards the park. Memories went back to my mind. There are good, and bad moments that I will not forget. Even though it's really bad, I still cherish them because it's a lesson for me, to do better.
Children were playing and shouting, parents were watching over them, girls who were chatting to each other, boys who were walking together, and many more happenings. A couple caught my attention.
They were laughing, and having their time. It feels like the whole damn world is theirs. You can't stop them from smiling at each other because they're really enjoying each other's companies.
That's when I felt a pang in my heart.
I tried looking for the shop that I wanted to go. As I searched for it, it was finally at my sight. I smiled, walking towards the entrance. Entering the shop, a bell was rang, giving a notice to everyone that there's a new costumer.
"Good morning to you, beautiful lady. What could I get for you?" A woman in her 60s, asked me with a smile.
I smiled back, "Uhh, can I get two red roses, and a sunflower?"
"Sure, what's the occasion?" she asked while getting the flowers that I was asking for.
"Personal problems."
She grabbed two roses from a green bucket, and a sunflower from a blue bucket. We walked together to the counter. She started to place them in a nice packaging.
"Ohh, that's sad. Hope you get well. Always remember that, there's a bright side in a person's perspective. I know it's hard to be positive once again after going through depression or sadness, but you have to accept the fact that you need to move on. Don't fed up with it all the time, you should get out of your sad place, and be alive once again. I feel you too kid."
I was listening deeply to what she said. She gave me butterflies in my stomach, feeling the anxiety rising up.
She's right. But how?
I didn't realize that she was now giving me the flowers. I gave her a warm smile as I took it, and payed for it. After putting the payment inside the cashier, she leaned forward with her elbows on the table.
"Forget everything you have with someone whom you maybe wanted to get free from, but remember that you had a thing together. Don't let your negative thoughts get to you."
I nodded, smiling. "Thank you so much for your advice. I'll keep that in mind. Thanks for making this flower beautiful."
She nodded and waved at me as I turned around, waving back at her. I left the place, and drive to my destination where I really need to go.
As I arrived, I saw three familiar figures, seating in front of Jun. I slowly took my steps towards them. My heart ached once again when I saw it.
Weng Junhui, May 12, 2018. (a/n: just pretend, sorry Jun huhuhu)
"You're here. We've been waiting for you." The8 said.
"Sorry, it's really hard to find the flower shop." I chuckled, and The8 patted me on the back, chuckling too.
"Take a seat." S.Coups commanded, patting the space beside him.
I took a seat between Mingyu, and S.Coups. My eyes wandered at his grave. Tears started to form in my already dull eyes.
I've been visiting Jun last week but I was really busy with my job that I have to miss days of my visit. This week again, I'll pay my missed visits. I always bring food for him, bring flowers to him. As he said before when we had our first date, he loves roses, and sunflowers. So, I get his favorite flowers. I'm so sad that I didn't gave one to him in person, and only achieved it when he's already somewhere at the sky.
My cheeks got wet by the new tears. I shut my eyes tightly, replaying a lot of memories I had with him. This year, it's going to be our 4th year, being together.
Why do you have to leave me?
He got in a car accident. He insist to go with the other members in the van. They were from their interviews and practices, so obviously all of them were tired, and exhausted. The hyungs don't want Jun to go drive by himself. As an arrogant guy, he didn't listen to one of them, even their manager.
I heard that he got sleepy when he was 10 minutes away from their dorm. With that, unexpected happening happened that everyone was avoiding to happen. A truck was losing his brakes, and decided to hit it with the car that Jun was using. It got hit on driver's seat, and Jun got a serious injury.
Then, the next thing was my most hate part. He was dead-in-arrival at the hospital.
I wanna kill the truck driver for killing Jun. He was the reason why I'm in this state of mind wherein I can't think straight anymore, can't focus at what I'm doing, and the reason for our tears, especially mines.
Of course, I controlled myself from doing it. I don't wanna go to jail for it.
Why does it have to be Jun?
I looked at the beautiful, blue sky above us. Then, I whispered the words that I wanted to tell him in person, it's just that the both of us were busy.
"I love you."
I felt an arm around my shoulder. Oh, how I wish it was yours.
I gazed up to see Mingyu sad-smiling down on me. I returned one to him before placing my head on his shoulders. He gave my shoulders tight grip. I balled out my eyes, crying in his arms. He hugged me tightly, giving my head a kiss.
"Shhh."
"I miss him."
"I miss him too. Everyone misses him."
"Thanks for being here with me."
The three guys nodded their heads, a sad smile planted on their mouths. Even though they're smiling, you could see a huge sadness on them.
See you in other time, Jun.
