"Sunday morning, rain is falling."
My boyfriend sang as he strum the strings on his guitar. He decided to stay at my apartment during his day off from work. It's been a busy month for him because of the comebacks that Seventeen has.
"Hey, are you alright?"
I nodded my head with a smile. "Why'd you ask?"
He sighed, placing his guitar beside me. "I've been thinking of things that I should not think about." He intertwined his hand with mines. I looked at him in confusion.
I gulped. Did he do something?
"You can tell me right? I'm here you know." I said, giving his hand a tight grip and he returned the same thing to mines.
And the moment that I don't want to happen ever to us.
"Do you still even love me?"
I wide my eyes, not believing at what I just heard. Don't tell me you Joshua Hong.
I grabbed his face as I stared at his brown eyes that are beautiful when you stare at it. I stared at his nose that his perfectly sharped. Then, I stared at his lips. The lips that I always kiss, and the lips that is only for me.
"I'm sorry, that was random. Scratch that off." Joshua shook his head, closing his eyes. He took my hands off but I remain them on his cheeks.
"Joshua, look at me."
He looked at me. His eyes were so full with sadness. He has big eye bags, giving a sign of lack of sleep and stress.
"Why do you ask that such thing?"
He looked away from my gaze, "It's just, I'm really busy with my career that I almost forgot about you. I didn't make time for us because I'm always practicing with my members. I don't surprise you with food you love because I'm eating with my members. I couldn't hold you so close to me because I have to focus on my work. I didn't took care of you when you're sick. Also, I was not there by your side as your shoulder to cry when you're feeling down.
I felt like I'm a useless boyfriend to be honest. I was not here to protect you from the bad things. I guess you don't deserve me as your lovingly boyfriend, (Y/N)."
I sadly smiled, removing my hands from his cheeks and hold his hands. "You know Joshua."
He looked at me, "What babe?"
"I understand that you're really busy as an Idol and you don't have to be so sorry. It's alright that you were not here when I'm having a bad time. Actually, I'm really happy, knowing that you are smiling so widely. Just seeing you with your members with joy in your faces, made a hug happiness inside of me. So, please don't think negative. You know I hate that right, babe?"
He sighed nodding, intertwining our fingers together. He kissed my hand, making me blush.
"But-"
"Hong Jisoo."
He raised his arms in surrender, "Chill babe." Chuckles left his mouth, ruffling my hair. I rolled my eyes.
"Do you know how much you mean to me?" I asked, winking at him, he laughed, shaking his head. I did a big circle then gave him a finger heart at the end. "That's how much you mean to me."
"Cutie. Come here you fella."
He smiled, pulling me in a tight but bear hug. He kissed my head while I wrapped my arms on his stomach.
"JOSHUA HYUNG!"
A voiced boomed throughout the room as twelve guys came in, as they have a spare key to my door. I groaned loudly as they waved at us. Hoshi placed a plastic bag full of food on the dining table before running towards us.
"Soonyoung no!"
But he jumped on us and squeezed us in a hug, "My favorite people. I love you both."
"Yeah, yeah, we love you too but we can't breath." Joshua said.
Hoshi cheekily grinned as he broke the hug. "Let's eat. Seungkwan treated is because he lost in a game."
"Yah! You don't have to report it to everyone! Aishh." Seungkwan spat at Hoshi while pointing at Hoshi with a glare, causing the rest of us to laugh.
Joshua whispered at my ear, "I love you." Then, he stood up, leaving me on a blush mess. Argh this guy.
"She's blushing yiiie!" DK shouted while fan boying. I rolled my eyes before covering my tomato face as the tease has started by Seventeen.
God, I hate you but I love you Joshua.
