Soonhoon || Hozi : Smile Flower [COMPLETED]

Goodbye

Humans have thoughts lingering in our mind, questions torrent with things which often cause them to overthink. They are too weak. Words are enough to break their walls. Sadness hit them like memories crushing every happiness into sadness. Despair rise in a ray of hope and in this time, it is completely opposite.

His heart was stabbed with despair, bleeding with the total darkness of his life. He can't stand the pain streaming in his blood but now, he's on top of a building in a rooftop where no one knew him and no one was there to make him stop. Only God knows how badly he felt, only Him who knows what he'd been through and he's exhausted.

He's bad.

He's bad for asking God to take him. 

He only think of himself. He didn't thought what will happen to the people who loves him dearly. 

The funny thing is people care about you more than you and you began to question, 'if they really do care, where are my friends when I needed them?'

"God, do you hear? Do you hear my voice? Do you feel me? If you do, you will help me right?" 

A loud bang was clearly heard on the door and there's SCoups and Dino who was flabbergasted to see him in a distance.

"Jihoon hyung." 

"I don't believe that You love me, I don't believe You anymore because if You truly do, why is my existence so painful? Why are you hurting me? Why are you getting everything? You have my mom, my dad and even the person I'm afraid to lose, You have him too. Tell me, do I still have the reason to live?"

"LEE JIHOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNN!" 

"JIHOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNN ANDWAEEEEEEEE!"

Dokyeom was late for a minute. Seungcheol and Chan looked at him in doubt. "I'm sorry I wasn't able to come here. I was looking for Jihoon because he texted me this morning that he would be here."

"And." Seokmin paused. "You wouldn't want to know what's going on him. I'm sorry because Jihoon really hate us to be a burden so he hide away."

"Woozi hyung is not--- why do you keep on hurting yourself?" Chan couldn't do it anymore, he fall on his knees and cry hysterically while looking at Jihoon. 

Yes, Jihoon is here. He is standing on the edge and wanted to end it.

"I know I don't have the chance to be there because I'm ending this gift of Yours. But can I have three last wished before I die?"

"Jihoooooooooooon!" Seungkwan and the others were so shock to Woozi and without hesitation, he twisted his face and smile at them. 

"I miss you Jihoon. Please, don't do this." Minghao shook his head, his eyes were pleading with hot salty water trickling down in his warm cheeks. He closed his eyes tightly, clenching his fist. His face shows distressed, biting his lower lip and let out the ache through wailing. 

"First, I will apologize for everything I have done. I'm sure you wouldn't forgive me and even my friends. I-I'm sorry because I'm getting tired of it, I'm so tried with this kind of life I have. Whenever I see my classmates with mom and dad in our family, I run inside the cubicle and cry. I'm jealous because I want to have them too, I want to feel the tender love from a mother and a protection from a father. I'm so jealous laughing with them with what I can't have." 

The sun is fading and so with the light. "Second, even when my life is a mess, I'm thankful for You. You never gave up on me, You gave me thousand reasons to appreciate the wonders of life. Thank you for giving me not only friends but brothers in lifetime. Thank you because I have a brother whose sweet as sugar. Even though there wasn't a day where we're not arguing, he is a guardian angel to me."

"Lastly, I wish when I leave this world, in my next life I hope I will learn how to be contented and happy.  I will miss my friends, I will miss their jokes and their addicting laughter. In this point of my life, I can really feel it, I feel that this is real."

"Jihoon." Joshua toughly move closer to him as the wind blew across his face. "We can't heal your wounds, leaving a scar in you but we're here to stay with you. I won't promise anything but you will regret it when you will continue what you are thinking. Jihoon, we wouldn't let you. We love you Jihoon, we're here to be with you." 

He shed one last drop and smile at him.

"I love you too."

I'm sorry guys.

And with that, he folded his eyelids and let his body fall in space.

"Jihoonie!"

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