From Haters to Lovers

CHALLENGES....

The hardest part wasn't packing my suitcases, nor finding a taxi on this busy Monday.

The hardest part was standing up from the floor and swallowing the tears that didn't have strenght to fall.

After a good year i will be back ......
Doing the thing i love, but i lost my senses for it, my touch, my heart....

i cant remember the last time i felt so scared, scared of the thing that shattered me into a million pieces.

As i was packing my suitcases i turned on my laptop and typed "BTS".

The first thing that showed up was their song called DNA. The tittle wasn't so bad, so i decided to listen to it.

The moment the song started, i stopped packing and sat down in front of the laptop staring at Jungkook's face." He is beautiful" i whispered.

The screen then followed a scene where they were all lined up. I didn't know all of them, well to be precise i knew only Jungkook but they all looked like dolls, unreal in every way.

They were all pieces of fine art. The one with the red hair seemed like the type that is chill, but the moment it cut to the scene when he jumped and switched with that other Kaneki Ken looking guy, i saw his smile and started to hate his face so much. His energy just disturbed me, since i'm a passive person.

As the song went on, one of them drew my attention in a special way, with a single look, his eyes were perfection, his face so feminine and yet manly. His blond hair suited his delicate features, the loosen fitting was also good looking on him, but when he stood next to the other guys he looked kinda short... almost below average short.

And after him an angelic face of a prince appeared .... Blue eyes dark hair and an unusual long finger *damn* i said to myself.

If i had to chose who i would get along with, it would be the white pale guy with the blue cotton hair, because he looked like he was done with life. *same*

And then again that red haired boy showed right next to him, smiling like everything is rainbows and kittens around him... Ugh *i growled*.

If i was totally honest.... everybody looked the same, only that one guy that mixed English words while he was rapping. Him i could easily tell a part.

Maybe that was because he had less makeup than the others.

The video nearly finished and i SWEAR TO F%$#@$% GOD IF I SEE HIM SMILING AGAIN I'LL LOSE IT. Not that i hated him but it was irritating, his nature was teasing the hell out of me.

Just when the song finished i realized that i didn't know what it was actually about, neither i payed attention to the lyrics, plus i had no captions on..... Damn it.... Their looks bewitched me ... Oh well, i had no time since i saw the clock and saw the taxi that waited me down the street.

I quickly closed my suitcases picked them up, locked the door and went into the cab.

We drove for over 20 mins and finally arrived.

The man helped me with my luggage and as i passed security, i took my reserved ticket.

At last i boarded the plane without any problems.

Meanwhile in Korea - at BTS house-

Rap Monster, Suga and Jin were making dinner and were talking seriously about what was the best decision to make for their carriers, since breaking the group was a no way go.

But in order to keep it they would need to sacrifice their happiness and be puppets to social media, along with the higher people involved in the money business.

As a leader Rap Mon was devastated. The pressure got to a point where even Suga was way more quieter than usual. They didn't need words, their looks told the whole story of how they felt.

Jin couldn't bare to see them like this, so he decided to speak up his mind.

" We cant go on like this anymore... "

Both Suga and Rap Mon looked at him and then at each other while slicing the vegetables for the meal. The leader decided to continue cutting the cabbage with roughness in his movements, he didn't have the soul to have this conversation again.
Unlike him Suga was furious. And the anger... he couldn't keep it inside of him.

He slammed the knife on the cutting board and turned to Jin with unmerciful eyes.

"DO YOU THINK I DONT F%$#$% KNOW THAT?! ".

He breathed heavily with his eyes piercing through Jin's soul

"We will fix it... we just need time.... thats all".

Jin looked at Rap Mon and hissed at Suga's immaturity, he always avoided to talk about this subject.

"How much more time do we actually have before we fall a part huh? .... A couple of days? A week? A month?!!".

His words struck him to the bone. The only thing Suga knew ever since he was little was his music... and seeing that slowly slip away from his hands was a painful sight to see. He rarely smiled, but lately, he didn't smile at all.

"SHUT UP!!, SHUT UP !!, DO YOU HAVE A F&^%$#@ HEART HYUNG?!!".

Rap Monster stopped mincing the same moment he felt Suga's words under his skin. He witnessed the first break down between the members and this was what he feared the most, the fights that will occur as a result of their situation.

"STOP IT !! BOTH OF YOU!.... Look at what you'r doing! What would the others think?..huh?.. If Hoseok sees you like this ?!! ...You know he had problems with pills!! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT?.

Jin's eyes flustered, he knew that forcing the truth will only bring pain, but he also knew that by ignoring the problem it will bring even more damage to this group, to this family. He didn't know what to say further. Because he was the oldest, he felt that he was the one that failed them.

Suga's agony proceeded to show on his face, he was feeling deeply scarred by Rap Mons words that wont go out of his head. He only pushed the cutting board violently out of the kitchen counter and walked out of the room, stomping from the front door and out of the building.

When Jin wanted to run after him, Namjoon pulled his shoulder and nodded his head as a sign that he needed to let him cool of a bit, because even if he went after him a fight could've easily broken out.

Knowing Yoongie's temper letting him go was the best decision in this situation.

Jin turned towards Rap Mon and asked him with a broken voice.

"Is this the end ?" He gasped hopelessly.

"Never....... if not for yourself or for me... fight for them..."

After a few moments Jin smiled and hugged him as a sign of appreciation.

He managed to remember why he even stayed in this group, because they were more than a family, they were something unexplainable with words.

Both of them finished dinner while Suga was still out...

He was taking a long walk that seemed to always relax him and calm him down.

It was about 9 pm and outside was getting colder.

Jungkook, V and J Hope rushed through the door. They were happy, they smiled and shined with optimism.

When both Jin and Namjoon asked them what was going on Jungkook replied with tears in his eyes.

"We found a solution hyung !"