Twilight reversed

Part 17

It has been three days and Jacob hasn't called me or texted me in anyway. I have called him about a million times. The last time i called him I left a voice message saying," hi Jacob it's Bella, again. I promised myself I'd call you one last time and if you don't call back I'd just forget about you. I really hope that's not the case though." He hasn't called back yet. I'm starting to consider Edward as an option. I mean he's handsome and kind, he also really cares about me. Unlike Jacob who just left me stranded. When I'm really mad at him sometimes I'll call him jerkob. It's terrible but it's better than nothing. I don't know what to do about him though. I liked him, I didn't just like him though, I loved him. You never really know how much someone means to you until they're gone. It's like I'm sick too. Like I'm struggling for air. I can't keep my life from falling apart. I orbited around him for a while. He was the sun and I was the earth. But now it's over for good and there's nothing either one of us can do about it now.