Niall's POV
"Okay, when was your first time and who was it with? Zayn let's start with you this time!" said Harry staring at Zayn. Shit. I was really hoping he wouldn't ask this question. I'm 18 years old and still a virgin. It's not like I haven't had the opportunity to do it, I have, it's just I'm waiting for the right girl to do it with.
"I was 16 and it was with this girl called Mallory. And I haven't talked to her since." Zayn said in a cocky tone.
"It was this year...and it was with Danielle." Liam said shyly. We all let out an 'awww' and his face turned a bright shade of red in embarrassment.
"It was the 6th week in the contestant's house and it was with Cher." Harry said proudly. Me and the other lads already knew this, but Nicole didn't and she was a little surprised by it. Finally it was my turn, I made something up so I wouldn't sound like a loser.
"Um, I was 16 and it was with this girl called Chloe." I said nervously. They all bought my made up story, and now it was Nicole's turn. She looked very nervous.
"Um...uh...well,it...uh...it was last night and it was with Louis..." She blurted out quite fast. She looked as though she was on the verge of tears. None of us really knew what to do/say in this situation. The room filled with and awkward silence.
"Deep convo time?" I said, hoping to break this on-going silence that was still heavy in the room.
"Yes please..." said Nicole softly, her voice was shaky, as if she was about to cry at any minute.
"Vent to us Nicki. Just let it all out." said Liam in a calming voice.
Liam and Zayn were sprawled out on the only couch in the living room, leaving no space for Harry, Nicki, or I. So Harry and I sat on the floor with our backs leant against the edge of the coffee table. Nicole layed on her side with her head rested on Harry's lap while I began to play with her hair.
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Nicole's POV
"Um...uh...well, it...uh...it was last night and it was with Louis..." I shot out quickly. There. I said it. I told them. Now they all know what a pathetic loser I am. I'm 17 years old and just lost my virginity, to my best friend since diaper days, who in return broke my heart. I could feel the tears coming on, but I fought to keep them back. All of the boys were silent. The first one to speak was Nialler.
"Deep convo time?" asked Niall, finally breaking the awkward silence that filled the small room.
"Yes please..." I said meakly, my voice was a bit shaky.
"Vent to us Nicki. Just let it all out." said Liam in a gentle voice. I loved venting to them. The boys and Danielle were the only people who I could actually trust with my life. And I absolutely love having deep conversations with them, because unlike most boys, they actually listen.
Zayn and Liam were snuggled together on the couch, it was adorable, but sadly there was no room left on it for me, Harry, or Niall. So Nialler and Hazza sat on the floor. I was laying sideways, with my head rested on Haz's lap, and Niall began to play with a piece of my hair. I love it when he does that, that's when I know I've got his total and complete attention. I started venting to them about everything. I literally let out all of my feelings. I didn't hold anything back.
"I still love Louis. I really do, and as much as I regret last night, I enjoyed it at the same time. I know, I should be mad at him for what he did, and trust me I tried my hardest to be angry with him, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I can't help but think that last night was truly all my fault. I should've known better than giving in to him too easily. And earlier he came here, and he said he wanted to talk about last night and that he wanted to apologize to me. I was almost going to forgive him, but I was so angry with myself, that I told him to forget that we had sex and to forget about me. I didn't mean it though, but I feel like he deserves someone so much better than a pathetic average girl like me. Now I'm stuck with these undeniable feelings for my best friend, knowing he will never ever feel the same way back. And it hurts, I don't think I've ever cried so much than I did today." when I finished my last statement, a tear slowly started to make its way down my cheek. Harry wiped it away with his thumb and sat me up so I was facing all four of them.
