Nicole's POV
It was 9 in the morning and Louis and I just got home from the hospital. I was exhausted from crying all night. It feels weird...to know that my baby died right inside of me. And now I just feel barren. Lou and I didn't say a word to each other on the ride home. I think half the reason was because we were both too tired and the other half was because we didn't really know what to say. I went straight to our bedroom and slammed the door behind me. I collapsed on the bed, half-expecting Louis to come in and comfort me. But he didn't...and now I was by myself, left with my thoughts. I ended up falling asleep, crying, for the second night in a row.
I woke up at 6 pm, I can't believe I slept for 10 hours straight. Louis' side of the bed was still perfectly made, which gave me the hint that he didn't even bother to come in and check on me. My empty stomach growled, and even though I didn't want to eat, I knew I had to. I got out of the bed, and wandered aimlessly into the kitchen. Louis wasn't in there, nor was he in the living room. Harry wasn't home either. I turned to the fridge and opened it's doors. I stood there for a good 5 minutes, just staring at the things inside. I finally reached for the jug of milk and got a glass out of the cabinet. I poured the milk in the class, and then put it back in the refrigdorater. I decided to make myself a box of mac 'n cheese. I went to the cabinet and grabbed a box of craft maccaroni and cheese. I filled a small pot with water and turned on the stove. As I waited for the water to boil, I grabbed my phone and decided to call Louis. It rung and rung and rung until it finally went to his voice mail.
"Hi this is Louis, I can't get to the phone right now so leave a message and I'll get back to you." his voice recording rang in my ears. I sighed, and then when the beep sounded I left a messege.
"Hey Lou, it's Nicole. I was just wondering where you are. Please call me back." I paused. "I love you." I finally finished, my words sounding a little bit too hesitant. I then proceeded to call Harry. He picked up almost immediately.
"Nicole?? Is everything alright?" he asked frantically. I chuckled a little, once I realized how worried he was.
"I'm fine Harry. But Lou isn't here...and he didn't leave a note or anything telling me where he went. I tried calling him too, but I got his voicemail. Do you have any ideas on where he went?" I quizzed, hoping he'd know the whereabouts of my boyfriend.
"He told me he was going out with Ed. He didn't tell you before he left?"
"Nope," I said popping the 'p' "I was asleep." I informed him.
"Oh, well he's out with Ed. I'm sure he's okay, he is probably just telling him about everything that's happened. He's sort of been out of the loop since he's been on tour. I don't think he even knows that you and Louis are a couple." he said, chuckling a little.
"Okay, well thanks for letting me know Haz. I'll let you get back to whatever you were doing." I said, knowing I probably interrupted his and Jess' dinner.
"Ni, if you need anything just call me or Jess, or one of the other lads. Okay? We're all here for you guys. Love you." he said, in a sincere tone.
"Thanks Hazza, I promise you if something happens I'll call you. Love you too harbear. Bye."
"Bye babe." he said before I hung up.
I know I should feel relieved that I know where Louis is...but at the same time it makes me ever more worried. I mean I love Ed, don't get me wrong, but everytime Ed is with Louis or any of the other lads, there's usually loads of drinking. And what makes it worse is that since Ed has been on tour he most likely doesn't know about me and Lou. Ed'll probably egg Louis on to flirt with random girls, and considering all I've put him through with the relationship and getting pregnant and then the misscarage, I wouldn't blame him if he did get with another girl. He probably wants nothing to do with me anymore. i want nothing to do with me anymore. I'm too broken and damaged to be fixed. Why would he want to stay with an emotionally damaged girl, when he could have some pretty girl with no problems.
I just hope my thoughts and assumptions aren't true, and Louis comes home perfectly sober and without regret. I hope.
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A/N: Hello lovebugs! I'm sorry this chapter is complete shit :/ but as this story comes closer to the end my chapters are going to become shorter, so please don't be mad! Anyways just to clear this up yes the Ed I was referrig to in this chapter is Ed Sheeran. What condition do you think Louis is going to come home in? Do you think he's gonna cheat on her? :o Tell me what ya think! Pweeeaassseee comment/vote/fan ! xx
