All in one

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I am not

A conversation starter

Probably why I am not good at having conversations with people

I feel like activities that interest me

Don't interest others

So I just keep my mouth shut

Preferring awkward silence

Over a boring conversation

If the words are stuck on my tongue

But not having the actual push to speak

Speaking is sometimes hard

When you constantly feel that you are being judged

Without having to say anything

My mind has a voice of its own

Constantly having conversation with itself

Instead of others

Others just don't understand

        

That if am brought around someone

I don't know

My quietness will be the only person I do know

I promise

I don't do it on purpose

When I do have the courage to talk

I instantly

Want to take the words back

I am not

A conversation starter

"Break out your shell Sarai"

Is almost impossible

When the shell gets stronger everyday

Everyday

I isolate myself

From people

Just to avoid thinking about a conversation

Thinking about the other persons opinion

So if I see you

Expect nothing else but a Hi

And a goodbye