My Secret Crush || Jungkook 18+

Chapter 25

Y/N's Prov

Today was the day. It's Monday's so I had the entire weekend to recover and think about what to say to Jungkook. I didn't go to school so I invited Jungkook over my place after school. I'm not grounded anymore and my parents won't be home by the time he comes over.......so it's just the two of us.

Oh god I'm so nervous. The last bell rang ten minutes ago which means Jungkook will be here any minute. I tried to clam my nerves by walking laps around my coffee table in the lounge room but once I hear that door bell ring, I will freak out.

"Just breathe y/n you will be fine" I said to myself over and over again. The palms of my hands become sweaty and I could feel my heart beating out of my chest. Walking around anxiously waiting for Jungkook felt like years. I just wish he would be here already.

And by my words I heard the sound of three knocks on my front door. I hobbled towards the door as my legs trembled. Looking down at the handle and thinking whether I should open it or not.

I shook that thought out of my head and took a deep breath in opening the door, to see Jungkook standing there with a bouquet of flowers in his hands.

There was no point in hiding my tears, Jungkook straight away noticed my change in attitude and hugged me. The feeling of his big arms wrapping around my fragile body, Jungkook's cologne filled my lungs and the warmth his body was radiating onto mine was just perfect.

"Awww don't cry" he whispered while kissing the top of my head. I hit his chest playfully knowing very well I shouldn't be crying in the first place, but I couldn't help it.

We began to sway side to side as we both didn't want to leave this position. It was so comfortable but I had to pull away since I invited him over for a reason.
"Um can we go upstairs into my room" I suggested and Jungkook nodded.

I walked over to my bed and sat down with Jungkook not so far behind me. "Sit" I patted the spot next to me. Jungkook sat down beside me and I took ahold of his hands, just to comfort me more.

I could tell Jungkook was very confused with the whole situation going on. "Last week I was rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night"

Jungkook face instantly became shocked "oh my god are you okay?" he said while reached up and touching my cheek. "I'm fine now but just listen" I removed his hand away from my face and brought it back down to his lap.

"I was rushed to hospital because I woke up one night with pains in my stomach and when I moved my bed sheets away, I saw blood around me" Jungkook's thumb wouldn't stop moving up and down, as he caresses my hands.

"I had a blood test done and the doctor said......" Tears ran down my cheeks, it was so hard for me to explain without crying.

"Sweetheart what's wrong?" Jungkook wiped my remaining tears off my face and I tried to smile at him but It just didn't work.

"She said I had a miscarriage" Jungkook's face completely dropped and I could tell he was speechless. "Wait......you had a.....miscarriage" Jungkook was trying hard to put his words into sentences but he was in so much shock. "Doesn't that mean you would have been...."

"Pregnant" I finished the sentence for him and that's when he stood up. Jungkook's hands rose up to his face and his breathing become uneasy.

"I was pregnant Jungkook" the stream of tears did not stop at this point, tasting the salty substance as it ran down my face uncontrollably.

Jungkook's Prov

She was pregnant, she was pregnant with my child. My pulse increased rapidly and I was freaking out. The distance between y/n and I become further as I didn't realise, I kept walking away from her. What the hell am I doing, turn around Jungkook, go to her.

I pulled my shit together, turned back around and walked straight to y/n, who was sitting there alone with nonstop tears falling from her eyes.

I bent down in front of her and held onto her hands "listen it's okay" she finally lifted her head to look at me. "Shit happens and I take full responsibility for it. I was an idiot who didn't use protection. Please don't blame yourself " I kissed her hands hoping I can be forgiven for my stupid actions.

"You don't......hate me?" she hiccuped trying to speak through the tears. "Of course not y/n" I unbuttoned my school shirt and took it off, to use to wipe away y/n's tears. A shade of pink ran across her cheeks, I smiled knowing why and was hoping this could change the atmosphere in the room.

"Where's that beautiful smile of yours" I said hoping she would respond and of course she did. Her face lit up which caused me to smile as well. Y/n started giggling when I decided to pick her up and spin her around.

"AHHH Jungkook put me down" she squirmed in my arms, hitting my shoulders. I slowly released my tight grip on y/n but before she reached the floor, I attached her lips to mine.

I was waiting to kiss her again ever since she got grounded. Her lips were so soft and plump and I was addicted to them. Her arms wrapped around my neck, with her fingers travelling through my hair, pulling us into a deeper kiss.

"Maybe..(kiss)...we...(kiss)....should try again and put a little bun in the oven" I  sneakily grinned at y/n.

Y/n playfully hit my chest with a tiny smile plastered on her face, she said walking back to her bed "Jungkook stop, my vagina has gone through enough for now"

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I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter

I would like to apologise tho if this book is starting to feel as if I am just dragging it on
but I promise I am trying to pick it back up again

Okay have a lovely day!!!!