Everything I'm Too Afraid To Say Out loud

Feelings

Sometimes I feel I've jumped from my skin, like a third person just looking in. I have no control of what I say or do, I can just pray that I say nothing too bad to you. My feelings have minds of their own, like I was the queen but now I've been overthrown. I tremble and shake from the fear that rocks me, too scared to tell you the feeling that shocks me. Like I said, I have no control, but this four letter word is about to take its toll. My feelings want to tell you, but they're afraid too, afraid what you might say, think, or even do. I want to tell you, but my stomach feels sick. Is it this four letter word? Or am I psychic? Is it just me, thinking you won't like it? I have a bad feeling, a feeling that just might make me go reeling. I forget about it, as I decide to just tell you, but my feelings were right; I shouldn't have fell for you.