Everything I'm Too Afraid To Say Out loud

Fear

"The thing you are most afraid to write- write that."

Bang. Another thing crashes outside my door, a scream accompanied with it. I put my head in my arms curled in a ball. Slowly rocking myself back and forth. I'm so scared. My sister is balling next to me. I pull her close, trying to comfort her.

"Shhhh.. It's ok.." Bang "its going to be ok.." Bang "not everyone in the world is like this.." Bang. I stroke her hair still trying to comfort her. "Think of good things..." Another bang. "Sometimes bad things just happen...We are going to survive this." I whisper to her, gently brushing a tear from her cheek. Trying to tilt her chin up to look at me. The door to my bedroom bursts open as I push my sister behind me, looking up to the monster from my nightmares. He slurs his words as he yells at me, for who knows what. Already knowing that running will only make it worse. I stand waiting for him to take out his anger. He rips my hair down, bringing me back to the floor. He kicks my stomach, and I lose my breath. Bringing my hand to clutch it. I clench my jaw as he repeatedly contacts his foot to my stomach. He then brings me up by my hair again and pounds his fist into my face, I instantly taste blood. I spit the blood in his face, already knowing it will just piss him off more.
"Bitch!" I instantly regret my decision as he throws me to the ground again. Making me feel like a rag doll in his hands, then everything goes black. All I can think about is if my sister is ok. If I was enough for him, if I wasn't she would be next. And that's the last thing I want. I won't know until the morning when I wake up....If I ever wake up.