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Chapter 5

Chapter 5:

Lexi's POV

I can hold my breath

I can bite my tongue

I can stay awake for days

If that's what you want

Be your number one

I can fake a smile

I can force a laugh

I can dance and play the part

If that's what you ask

Give you all I am

I can do it

I can do it

I can do it

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

I can turn it on

Be a good machine

I can hold the weight of worlds

If that's what you need

Be your everything

I can do it

I can do it

I'll get through it

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I rub my eyes and sit up in my bed. Why the hell does school have to be so early!!!! No fair. It's Friday at least, so I roll out of bed... Literally, I roll and smack my face on the floor.

" OW!!!! I'm an idiot."

Yes, yes you are.

Tinkerbell? Why are you in my head?!

I'm not Tinkerbell genius.

I know your Tinkerbell... And your not very nice... Go away.

Once I get the strength to pry my face off of the floor, I wash my face and put on my makeup. Once I make sure I look good, I put on my black skinny jeans and my light pink shirt that's says ' Who asked you?!'. I swing my bag over my shoulder and put on my black beanie.

I slump down the stairs and I am immediately being greeted by my mother and father... They have been acting weird all week... All lovey dovey, even know my father has his arm snaked around my mothers waist. Today I am gonna talk to Anne's group of friends. I'm beyond nervous, there are mutant baby dragons in my stomach. I grab an apple on my way out, and get in my car to drive to school.

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First period of the day... I get this weird feeling... It's like a sensor. I get nervous and my palms get sweaty. I don't understand. I just try to glue myself to Cole.

At lunch I go outside where Anne's friends hang out. As I come closer to them I see them sitting on 2 benches. I look down and go right up to them.

" Ew... It's a popular, they are disgusting." One of them says, I think it's Perry. I look up not understanding why I'm disgusting... They don't know me, they shouldn't be judging.

" OMG to boot it's Lexi, the most disgusting of them all. Why do you feel the need to have all the attention. Are you that insecure? Wow this feels good, I love telling this disgrace to humanity how nobody cares about her and nobody ever will." The same girl perry says with a smirk. Tears blur my vision and I whip around and start walking away. So I guess everyone hates me, I bet you even my sister hates me... Why was I even put on this planet if I should just die anyway? It's not like anyone cares about my well being.

I'm almost of the school grounds when a voice shrieks my name. I stop abruptly and just wait for this person to catch up to me.

" Lexi." It's Anne, " I'm so sorry... I didn't think she would be there... She doesn't really fit in with us. My friends don't think that."

" But she's right... Nobody cares, I'm a waste of space on this earth." Tears start falling. But I stop them, no need to waste anything of myself.

" Lexi no, you are not a waste of space. I care about you, maybe that isn't enough but that means you aren't a waste of space." She holds my wrist, yet I yank away.

" Let me go!" I run and slump onto the school wall, sliding down into a sitting position. In front of me I see a piece of broken glass. With a wavering hand a grab it and slit a cut in my arm. I bleed enough for my vision to have blacks spots. But I'm still conscious.

I hate life... Life go to hell.

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Sorry it's so short. But I think I ended it well.

Don't judge.

- I do what I want! 💗