Silence || Tyler Joseph

Bath tub

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Clara
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I haven't seen him for a week now and it pains my heart.

Where could he be? Why is he avoiding me?

Is it because of that voice inside his head?

God, I wish he realizes how strong he is and how much he can be. I wish he could just make disappear Blurryface.

Same goes for Josh, he is extremely silent and extremely scared from the outside world.

Both of the guys are scared of what's new.

Do they hate it?

I was working on a project for my work, but I couldn't even focus. It's so frustrating.

Whatever I was thinking about Tyler was going directly to the project unconsciously.

Angered by the lack of capacity to concentrate I took the paper and ripped it in half.

It felt even worse, now I have to start once again from the start.

Just like between me and Tyler.

Pretend that I don't know him, get to know him, make him cry involuntarily, make him scared of me and making him go away from me.

And then redo everything once again.

I let out a frustrated sigh going towards my bedroom.

Why is my mind so stuck on him? Why am I giving so much for nothing?

I stopped in my tracks when the something in my head clicked.

"Oh no..." I immediately started to run towards the entrance of my house grabbing the keys in the process.

After I got outside I immediately started going to Tyler's and Josh's house.

He wouldn't do it right? He isn't that stupid right?

He knows he's not going to fix a simple thing?

He has to know. He must know.

After running for around half an hour I started banging on their door. "Josh! Tyler!"

No response.

I started to panic even more.

What if they've both done it?

I took my phone calling Josh's number, that he gave me when we spoke about who is Blurryface.

"Hey Clara...? What's up?" His confused voice asked me.

"Where are you and Tyler?" I asked panting roughly.

"Are you okay-"

"Tell me." I demanded.

"Tyler is at home and I'm working rig-... Shit." He silenced himself slightly sighed. "Listen Clara... I... The key is on top of the door frame. I'll be there in ten minutes. If Tyler has done anything please try to help him, I beg you with all my heart. I'm sorry it's my fault, he is good with masking his own feelings." I could hear him nearly crying as he was frantically walking to get here.

"No no, Josh it's not your fault, I've been... I'll tell you later I need to see if Tyler is ok." I hung the phone and jumped getting the key.

I opened the apartment and closed the door behind me immediately starting to search for Tyler.

"Tyler!" I yelled slightly, panic taking over me at the silence coming back at me. "Tyler please rep-" I gasped and covered my mouth as I saw Tyler inside the bath full with water and inked red. "Shit!"

I grabbed the phone immediately calling for an ambulance.

I checked for his pulse, it's still there.

"Tyler... Tyler please stay alive." Tapping on his cheek I could see him react. I immediately unclogged the bath tub and took a few towels wrapping them on his arms and legs.

He was still loosing blood.

I heard the door open and Josh yelling our names but I was starting to feel nauseous because of all the blood that was everywhere.

"J-Josh! In the bathroom!" I called him out and he immediately came in shrieking loudly.

"Tyler why?!" He sat down and hugged him on his chest. "Tyler I swear that if you're hearing me! This is not funny! It's not the right thing to do! He wants exactly this from you! And you followed his rules!"

"I-I called on the ambulance... They're going to be here..." I mumbled slightly without taking my eyes off of Tyler.

I felt so numb, and for sure Josh was too.

I could feel a tingling feeling on my body, I was breathing too heavily and all the oxygen was going to my head.

I can't faint right now. It's not the time.

My brain was blacking out on me and all I could hear was Josh yelling for where we were.

Was the ambulance here?

Then the night consumed me.