Silence || Tyler Joseph

Poisoned words

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Tyler
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Is this how it's going to be?

Am I not enough for her? Of course I'm not.

I bit my lip harshly almost splitting it open. I will not let this silence consume me. I'm stronger than it.

I was standing in front of her house, fists beside my waist, head tilted slightly.

How I'm supposed to make her talk? Is silence her defense?

I was to open my mouth to speak once again but instead I heard an ukulele coming from her house.

She plays instruments?

Then I heard her voice, it was so soft and light, I was nearly jealous.

Why is she singing in a foreign language?

Wait, it sounds like trees- No, it is trees! A song I composed when I was a little boy.

How did she know this song? Did she had the same ideas as me? Is it even possible?

I inhaled slightly the forest' air and then took a step further to her door. My name's Tyler and I don't care what you think. I opened it and got inside without making a sound.

Was I considered now a thief?

I closed the door behind me gently and bit my lip holding back me from screaming for her to stop.

She doesn't know the meaning therefore she doesn't deserve to sing it.

Her voice was convincing me otherwise though. I started to walk towards her listening intently.

I recognized she was at the bridge and I started to sing, the only difference between being the language.

She had her mesmerizing gaze at me.

She didn't even flinch. She continued to play. She knew.

She knew I was going to be here.

Once the peak of the song was near she started to silence herself meanwhile I started to pick up my breath more and more.

I started screaming 'Hello' at the top of my lungs resulting to break my voice a little bit.

It was breaking even more.

I was breaking.

And she was just smiling at me.

She put down the ukulele and stared at me in silence while I was finishing the song.

Isn't she fucking crazy?

I can't help but wonder.

"Tyler." She said with a firm voice after I finished the song. "Has anyone told you that you are so talented? Has anyone told you that your mind is so right? Has anyone told you how much I care for you?" She stood up and came nearer. "But have you ever thought that we might be incompatible?"

I never... I never thought of it...?

Of course we're incompatible.

"Don't ask him. Ask yourself. Ask your bones and soul. What do you want to do when you see me? What do you want to tell me?"

My eyes went slighty wide.

If she's telling all of this then why did she not open the door when I was spilling out my heart.

"Tell it again to me. Tell me those sweet poisoned words. Because no one I know has suffered this much."

She was messing around with me.

She couldn't be serious.

"Tyler don't stay in silence. I know what it means for you. Force yourself."

"I-I..." The weakness in my voice spoke for me and it was terrible.

"I-... I love you Clara... That's what I want to say but I'm unable."

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Honestly don't ask me what I'm writing my head is a mess. I'm full with phrases with empty significance.