Torn In Between

Chapter 8

If you want to fly in the sky, you need to leave the earth. If you want to move forward, you need to let go the past that drags you down.

Did he just kissed my forehead!?

Agad ko siyang binatukan pero tumawa lang ito sakin. Tinukso naman ako nang mga kasama niya including Sam. I rolled my eyes, at naglakad na papuntang stage. Agad akong umupo sa piano at huminga ng malalim. This is it, Cass!

" Go Cassy! " rinig kong sigaw ni Todd

I placed my hands on the keys and closed my eyes. This is the perfect place to express the words that I wanted him to know, to understand. I hope after this, tapos na lahat.

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of a love you really need

Binuhos ko lahat ng emosyon ko sa kanta. Kahit masakit, susubukan ko na talagang pakawalan siya sa puso ko, sa buhay ko. I opened my eyes at tumingin sa gawi niya, agad akong napaiwas ng tingin nang napagtanto kong nakatingin pala ito sakin.

You need someone
Willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever
Baby, that's something I can't do

Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need

But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you, I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

As I sing the song with my emotions on it, I felt my eyes watered. Pinigilan ko itong tumulo at baka mabasag pa ang boses ko. The crowd was very silent, parang dinadamdam rin nila ang emosyon na ibinibigay ko sa kanta. I caught Sam looking at me warily, even Todd. Im sure alam nila kong sinong laman netong kanta ko.

I don't really wanna go

But deep in my heart, I know

This is the kindest thing to do

This is really the kindest thing to do, to forget him, to leave him in the past and to move on. A single tear fell. I heard them gasped but I managed to smile at the crowd when I met his gaze,  para akong naghina sa mga titig niya, that cold stare.  Ibinaling ko nalang ang tingin ko sa kamay kong nasa piano. Hindi ko talaga kayang makipag eye to eye sa kanya.