Lil Skies

Chapter Eighteen

Diego just entered the room. I thought it was Kimetrius, I thought he would've had a change in heart and realized that he still loved me... but I was wrong. Maybe I was wrong this whole time... maybe he never loved me. Maybe he finally got tired of me and all the drama I come with... he probably just wants a normal girl... like Kara. I should stop caring but I can't stop thinking about him, he's been such a big part of my life for awhile-

"Are you okay, ma?" Diego brought me out of my thoughts, he's now crouching in front of me, staring into my eyes. Honestly I want to tell him how I feel, tell him everything, even about the phone call I just got, I want to vent to him, to scream, cry, and bury myself in his arms but instead all I could do was say, "I'm fine". It's always been easier for me to bottle up my emotions, I'm pretty crazy.

He tucked a strand of hair behind my ear, our lips were centimeters apart, I wanted to close the space between us but I'm still too upset.

"Look I ain't tryin to be corny or nothin' but you can tell me anything... y'know that right? I'm here for you. I been through a lot myself and if you need someone to talk to I got you." Diego consoled me.

He's so genuine and sweet, I got feelings for him that's for sure... I'm just sorta bad at expressing myself.

"Thanks for that, it means a lot especially coming from you. I'm just sad about you-know-who. Got me contemplating suicide and shit."

"I'm real sorry boo. I know how it feels. I've felt like that before too but I want you to know that even though you feelin low right now... it gets better I promise you it does and that's facts ma."

Damn why's he so cute? That smile... those tattoos... wait is he getting closer? Yes. He's closing his eyes, puckering his lips, that space between us got filled, and my hearts racing. I felt things for Diego that I didn't feel for Kimetrius. Our relationship was different.

Just then the door swung open... and... Skies was standing there.

"Oh shit." I muttered after Xan and I pulled away from one another.

Diego stood up and made direct eye contact with him.

"Sup man?"

"For real? You gon "sup man" me when you fuckin wit my girl? You a backstabbin-"

"Fool shut the hell up... that ain't your girl... you chose to leave her... shit... after that video you could've gone back to her but you didn't. So just back off."

"Fuck you dawg, you ain't shit but a traitor-ass-bitch!"

Skies aggressively shoved Diego, causing him to stumble back, and that's when I got in the middle of them. This is childish asf.

"Calm the hell down! Geez!"

"Hell nah he pushed me lemme at him!" I didn't listen, I just kept them away from each other, forcefully.

"Do something about it! Dumbass lil crackhead lookin hoe." Skies retorted.

"First of all, he doesn't look like a crackhead, he's sexy as fuck... and second of all, Diego's right. You could've came back to me... I prolly would've taken you back but instead you chose Kara. I hope your happy with her. And I wish you both the best. But you have to leave now. We have to go without each other because staying together is hurting both of us too much." That calmed down way quicker than I anticipated, I thought someone was gonna get hit. And it seemed like after I said that the vibe changed completely, and became more... melancholy.

"A'ight then but when you breakin it off wit me that means I ain't gon be there when ya need me. I ain't gon be there to protect you, ain't gon be there for you to cry to, no more love, no more us, no more chances. We done and that's that." Skies said, then he exited the room and I was left wondering, what should I have done? Said nothing and wish I had? Or did what I'd done and said something I wish I hadn't?

And even though Diego was there I still felt alone. I felt abandoned by the one person I thought would be there for me forever. It's all my fault though, it seems to always be.

"What the fuck just happened?" Diego broke the silence.

"You were there."

"Nah I mean... what's next? You done wit him so what are we?"

"I dunno. All I know is that I don't wanna be here." I replied, on the verge of tears.

He quickly embraced me then got up.

"Okay then, call your driver ma. Imma go say bye to Gaz and everyone. I'll meet you outside."

"Alright."

LIL SKIES' P.O.V.

Someone once said, "The worst type of crying is the silent one. The one where you feel it in your throat, your eyes become blurry from the tears, and you realize the person that meant most to you is gone". I can relate a lot right about now.

I'm gettin driven to my hotel, I kinda wish I never went to that party. Maybe Kat wouldn't have done that to me.

I know I wasn't blameless in this situation but did Kat really have to go after Diego? She knew we were tight, she knew that it would hurt me seeing them together... and she still did it. She knew exactly what she was doing and that's what hurt the most.

Fuck it. One day she gon realize how much she loves me and she's gonna hate herself for letting me go. And until that day Ima try my best to forget about her.

Oh shi... someone's calling me is it... her?

"Wassup?"

A/N: I'm sorry if this is too unrealistic I know there's a lot of plot holes & stuff but I'm trying lol. Stay tuned y'all and add this to ur reading list if you haven't already. TYSM y'all are amazing!💙💜💚💛💙💜💚💛💙