Dear Harry,
I'm so glad I took the Babysitting job. I'm so glad I got to see your smiling face again. I got to see Paddy and Sam and Tom again. Even though the thought of babysitting brought me to tears I still went, and I haven't been happier. I love Paddy like a little brother, and watching him play made me forget about everything that has happened. It made me forget the fight, and the coffee shop. It made the thought of you forgetting me slip from my mind, and instead it was replaced by real joy this time. Not some fake smile I painted on my face, so that you wouldn't I was upset. For once I was happy, and all the worries I had about you and your memory were washed away.
Paddy and I played loads of board games. He is quite the superstar at them. We also played on the trampoline, until Paddy scrapped his knee, and I had to clean it and put a band-aid on him. We then went inside, and we watched some movies. It wasn't long until Paddy fell asleep, and I carried him up to his room. I laid him down on his bed and brought the comforter up over him. I stood in the doorway for a little bit, looking at him lying there. Thinking about how hard everything must be for paddy to be going through. He is just a child and to experience what he is going through at his age is terrible. I love paddy with all my heart, and if I could take his suffering away and add it to my own, If I could take your suffering away and add it to my own, maybe the world would be a bit better for everyone. Maybe the sun may shine a bit brighter for everyone. Maybe the coffee a bit sweeter, and their life a bit better.
But if I were to take away your suffering and add it to my own. If I were the one to have gotten hit, then I don't know how much more pain and struggling that would have added to you. If it were me, then two lives would have been lost. Not gone forever, but lost in the moment, and the time when they were happy together.
I soon fell asleep on the couch, as the tv played, and paddy slept. It wasn't long until a pair of strong hands that I knew all to well were lightly shaking me awake. I opened my eyes only to meet yours. The eyes that once held the soul of a happy young boy, are now colorless and cold. They are longing for the memories they once held, the only problem is I don't know if you will ever get them back.
You told me I could stay the night, but I couldn't. I said I would walk home, but of course you insisted you take me home since it was far to late for me to walk home by myself. I got into your car, and all the memories came flooding into my mind. Everything from that night we met. You have no idea how much I wanted you to drive down the road, is talking about various things, the same things we had talked about that night we met. I imagined you getting this feeling that this had happened before, and you would look around at everything from your car to my face. I hoped that you would suddenly scream out that you remembered everything. You would finally remember me. But as much as I wanted that to happen, it didn't. You pulled up to my apartment, and I thanked you turning around quickly so you couldn't see the sadness in my eyes. I walked into my apartment thinking about how that could have gone. How you could have remembered everything. But you didn't.
Someday yours truly,
Y/n
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~Gabbi
