Dear Harry,
I went on a walk today. I didn't know where I was going, but I got up this morning, and I walked. I let my feet take me where ever they pleased. I walked past the line of trees where we took photos by, where you carved our initials. I walked past our bench, and our coffee shop that holds the booth in which we sat so many times. I just kept walking. I let my feet take me where they pleased.
I walked, and walked, and walked. And I ended up at your house. On your front porch. With my hand held in the air, my fist balled up, and ready to knock. My heart was racing, my head was pounding. The beating of my heart getting louder every time I got closer to the door. I stood there not knowing what to do. My hand got so close to the door, but I just couldn't knock. I walked away from the door and back to my apartment.
Maybe I was scared that you wouldn't have been home. Maybe I was scared that someone else would open the door, or that paddy would see me and I wouldn't have the heart to tell him I couldn't stay. Although these things probably played a part, the true reason I walked away from your door, my heart dropping as it beats out of my chest was because i knew. I knew you would be home. I knew that Tom was out with Harrison and paddy was at school and sam had soccer. I knew that the person opening the door would have these sad eyes that I couldn't bare to see another time. It was because even though I wanted to talk to you and see you again, I just couldn't bring myself to facing you after we've gone through so much. I couldn't walk into your house and act as if nothing happened as if everything had just disappeared. I wanted to talk to you and I wanted to sort things out, but I just couldn't.
I still love you Harry. You may not know this, but I think about you all the time. It pains me to say that I think about you and I wish you still loved me as much as I once, no, still do love you. You have no idea how much I want to hear you say "I love you" just once more. I want to see those words leave your lips, and I want them to be directed to me. But I know that will never happen again because I, we, screwed up, and things will never be the same.No longer yours truly,
Y/nDid you guys like this chapter? Sorry it took me so long to update I've been really busy with everything rn. Anyway if you guys have any suggestions about what I should put in the next chapter PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE feel free to comment them. I honestly have NO IDEA what I'm going to write next.